Friday, May 12, 2006
just got back not long... celebrate my uncle's 37 birthday... and ya enjoy today a bit... but not wat i expected it to be la...went mos last night with jas kee, xinhui, cheow and sok with some other of their friends la... was suppose to go double o as it was free entry for ladies.. but sadly when we reach there, the queue was damn freaking long and not to mention that the queue was being freeze as there were too many people in the club and the full house sign was out for both double o and o bar.... isn't that scary.. i guess coz today was a holiday thus everyone club last night. was at smoove damn the crowd is killer.. lets say if a bomb were to drop on mos i guess 1/4 of s'pore population will be gone... thats how pack it was...! talk abt space for dancing when there isn't any breathing space.. the area of dance space was like the surrounding of ur foot.This is the 1st time i go mos which is this pack la... oh ya glenn was there too haha he forever clubbing de lehz...haha jio me go rich man room but in the end can't go in too... sigh i wanted to go my fav PURE room but argh must be 23 and above den can enter... wat the hell... i miss the huge bean bag.. after mos went mac drink and rest leggy, den go back home... took NR6 home with xinhui on the bus chat alot on my past with jw and my present with ys... come to think of it i do miss thoes sweet memories... but i shall nv compare them... jw treats me the best and this kind of treatment i could nv ask for more... but ys... haiz... not say he treats me bad or wat but just that he dun really care if i'm happy or sad... or if i have any xin shi?? sigh.. sometimes i just think back why did i accept him in the 1st place?? like wat my kitty always say "路是你自己选的，没有人拿刀避你。" i have no one to blame but myself... i dun ask for my just a lil more care and concern will be enough... haiz... reach home this morning at 430... went to bath and waited till it was 5 and gave him morning call for his gym. confirm our date and i went to slp. abt 3 hours later at 8 he called and ask me wake up he wan to meet at 10 as he was gg to ponggol there pray. know me la how piggy am i... i start whining and say very early den i tell me 12 meet la... and it went on and on till he say ok [unwilling]...back to slp...and my arlam din ring gosh when i woke up was already 1130 i saw his sms "are we still meeting" i quickly reply ya and went to bath... at 1150 he called... and say to meet at 1215 i was like stun la... told him to meet at 1 but he refuse to hang up till 1230 see wat i mean by ibf argh~ my intention for gg out today was to speak to him at the same time celebrate our 5th anniversary. We went to the new cathay cineplex to watch M.I.3 woohoo its damn big and grand... good sound system had a lover's combo and the popcorn taste yummy hee... enjoyed myself *winks* after that i pass him the nike top that i got him... well it seems that he dun really like it... haiz..watever it is i still took the time to choose it for him... when i ask if he like it，he just answered woah it must have coz 50+ hmmm... but in fact it was not. sigh why do u have to judge a gift by the value and not how it is?? sigh... been having very bad head pain that affects the neck and my back brain killer pain and it happen today din tell him else he will start saying i'm a weakling and dunno how to take care of myself...bla bla...so i just kept quiet and walk with him lor... baby even if i dun hold ur hand... you still won't hold mine... what has happen there is this gap between us... or are u too concern over ur muscle and look?? i really wanan know what is my standing in ur life... even vivian seems more impt den me... i really wanna know wat are you thinking all the time... and i so happen to come across this lil paragraph:
爱一个人，要了解也要开解；要道歉也
要道谢；要认错也要改错；要体贴也要体谅；
是接受而不是忍受；是宽容而不是纵容；是支
持而不是支配；是慰问而不是质问；是倾诉而
不是控诉；是难忘而不是遗忘；是彼此交流而
不是凡事交代；是为对方默默祈求而不向对方
诸多要求。可以浪漫，但不要浪费，不要随便
牵手，更不要随便放手 how come u nv see the good of me.. but instate u keep picking on my flaws... sigh~
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