Saturday, December 31, 2005
MEN ARE SO INSENSITIVE...!!!! wat's with all the guys today sigh... i begining not to understand u... your inside world ur thinking and ur feelings... i just dunno anything!! sometimes its better to say watever u feel out den just shoo me off and say that there is nothing!! sigh i'm ur gf la but its seems that u dun share ur feelings out la or do u reckon that i'm gf... i'm always guessing lor sigh... i only can assume!! wth lor~ sometimes i wonder la "are u my boyfriend? / am i ur gf?" although we both know it la... but does it seems as it is... i dunno lor... wo de an quan gan zai na li!! i dun feel any secure lor... maybe u are not as sensitive as i am ba... but sorry to say so la i love to have the attention of my bf la.. and maybe i'm not geeting enough of it lor... i know u dun like me to club and i know u are scare whenever i go clubbing... but this is wat i enjoy doing with my friends!! and i know my limit... and stop thinking as if i'm a lose ger la.. i'm telling u that i'm NOT la!! i know u r worried but... isn't it the same as i feel whenever u go meet ur brothers and stuff... u should know wat i mean when i say that la... and u know i dun like de lor... whenever u say u miss me!! do u mena it or u just say it coz u wanna say! from my p.o.v la...when a person misses a person he/she will find all ways and excuses juat to see that person... but u r diff u just say u miss and ya thats it... its like meaningless... but when i do say i miss u i really wan u to be by my side that very moment! haiz.. watever la... do u care about me!! i really wanna know la! i can dun look for u the whole day and u can simply dun look for me too la... wake up wun msg me to say u wake up le... slp oso wun say! say call back...sometimes u do but most of the time u dun lor... haiz... maybe i'm hard to please or maybe my expectation is simply to high... take for eg just now i msg u at abt 1030 plus and there is no reply at all lor i have to call u den i know wat u doing la... u know how i feel ma... u dunno lor... all u care is about urself la... u say u are tired la...den i dun disturb u but when i called u you are playing la wth lor... i have bf like no bf like that la.. damn sad whole day lor... afternoon say go see doc... u oso can't be botherd to ask wat the doc say la...where is the concern that i should have!! like i told u before i nv felt ur care and concern when u were after me..and u said that u will only give all ur care and concern to ur gf...now gf le but still where it is... i totall have no say le lor... or maybe i just dun wanna say much le la... just wondering if this r/s will last not lor... damn sad lor~ i dunno wat to say to u le... wat's wrong when pple knows that we are together ur gf so jian bu de ren mehz... if so den wats the point lor... ya maybe i'm so jian bu de ren ba!!! or maybe u just dun treasure wat u have when u yong you it lor... u once told me that ur expectation for ur gf is a xian su de ger and ask too be one... sorry la i'm not that xian xu ger u wan lor... haiz... fuck la why am i feeling so down argh hate teh feeling la... sobz i need a hug i need a shoulder i wan a listening ear... *cries*
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