Tuesday, April 12, 2005
wah~ went for my DCNK make up lesson today hmmm failed this damn subject hai me gotta se ethat teacher again...sigh well today after lesson went da watch a movie with belley darling~ -the eye 10- whahhaha at 1st ahe was laughing all the way well some parts are damn funny other parts are scary *hide in corner* ally is scare haha that why can't sleep... belley laugh laugh till hide behind my sweater hood lolx me worst cover eye eye till only a lil gap to see lolx hahaha long time no trill le ever since she and me hai~
was suppose to drag hummy to watch movie together de but he refuse hahah...hack la anyway yea it happen again~ ate lunch at foodcourt den ya suddenly can't finish den as ya went toilet after that~
in toilet:
belle came out 1st den
belle :"ally u done"
ally :"yea...(faint sounding) almost done"
belle :"why ur eyes red red de so small" "u cried"
ally :"nah vommited again~"
belle :"huh?"
haha end of story~
yea~ she told me better not make that a habit den i was like ya i know~ but i tell her its a good way to lose weight...hahah i will make sure i lose lots of weight
ideal TARGET 45kg
gotta lose about 10
FAT FAT FAT FAT FAT ALLY IS SO DAMN FAT
Monday, April 11, 2005
sigh~ 6 months.....6 months has pass many things happen and i have change a lot to someone i hardly understand and reconise anymore~...haiz its that long~~~ too painful too stressful too much too handle....sigh~ i still rem 6 months before it.... all the happy moments i had with u...now i see that u have found the one to lean on le i'm very happy for u yeah~ begining i wasn't too sure if i could accept it but now we are...ya...happy for each other ba ger ger I MISS YOU...sigh~ been eating and vommiting sigh dun understand why...anything in = everything out THIS IS BAD if i carry on... WHAT'S WRONG WITH ME tears fall heart broken yet i'm still standing strong outside...but am i really that strong~ am i really a strong ger~
nah~ i dun think i am as strong as i seems to be...haiz failed one of my moudles yea~ its expected coz i dun undertsand wat the SHIT the teacher is teaching except some due to all the "friendship" thingy that has affect me lots yea~
i'm a STRONG kiddo rem!!!
yea maybe ya right i'm blinded by my feelings...yes indeed i'm very fond of you and i know there is no possibility between us but still i wanna share happiness and sorrow with u thats all i dun ask for nothing more~ thanx for all the memories u had gave me yea~ i'll treasure it be it happy or sad...
i have a dream and that dream is to be with u ----> this is just a foolish thinking of mine~
YOU WON'T UNDERSTAND DE~~~
signing off
ally
Thursday, April 07, 2005
sighwhy whenever i show concern to u...u'll have to just reject it haiz why why...
Tuesday, April 05, 2005
sigh~ been a long time since i have blog haiz well feeling rather down but i dunno wats the cause of it yea kinda sad maybe i think too much le haiyo woke up with a nice sweet dream but yea already said its a dream in reality it can NEVER happen really wish that i won't feel this way its very terrible...how i wish that i can fall asleep and never wake so i will always be happy...sigh i miss u and its true i know i shouldn't be feeling this but why...i dunno...its just an feeling or is it real sigh...wats my identity now? i dunno? so many knots in my heart who will be there to un-tie it...i miss thoes days...its worst now that is holidays now so many free farking time tooo free till think too much thou i've been rather happy that pi feng and me are ok le but i just feel that something is missing something that me myself dunno wat is it wor...haiz i feel like crying but why aren't thoes tears coming out...W H Y ? maybe i'm too bother by every movement of urs le sigh~ kinda sick now le yesterday slight fever and ya dun care la anyway its not the usual way i would spend my holidays de...THIS IS SO UNLIKE ME!!!! no matter wat i do i'm nv gonna surpass her de....haiz...watever it is its ur decision u happy can le...am i gg back to the path that i was once in?? sigh
I WAN TO BE ON DIET
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