Friday, July 28, 2006
sigh... i should not sense wat i'm sensing... dotx wth am i saying crap... i feel so distracted i lost interest in almost everything le... everything has become blend... monotone... my life is like a colour-less tv show... i'm trying very hard to show out my feelings... i'm trying very hard but how can i acheive an heartless state?? it seems so hard... my heart... hurts deep within... i know my weakness and i must prevent it from controling me... since that night... i believe u have already treat me just like a normal friend le... i dun understand why is it so easy for u to just let go?? 7 months together but... it seems that the relationship lasted only the 1st 3 1/2 months other den that holding on the r/s keep everything gg. somehow i thot u were so real to me but now it seems so distance... someone that i could only look and stare at his backview... i know how much my surrounding friends are helping me... and i really thank you gers... *hugs* but somehow i thot the r/s could be save!! but i was so wrong... holding on to u is not love... its forcing u!! and since u have change of heart i believe i was the one in the dark... its impossible that u miss me coz thats so fake... i guess ur heart have been stolen by another ger... hopefully u'll treat her well... not everyone is perfect dun expect too much... sigh... i miss u~ *cries* song posted for you
最后我们分开了
虽然还是朋友
但做回朋友的情人
想摆脱关系不太容易
寂寞成了习惯
习惯靠着孤单
想念该遗忘
不该在身旁
陪着我的每个夜晚
我只想
对着夜空轻轻的呼吸
问自己最爱的人到底在哪里
在慌乱中
翻箱倒柜寻找记忆
有一种
爱它曾经住在我心里
陪伴我熬过多少个无声哭泣
不懂爱情
我的心如此无力
其实我很清醒
其实我很冷静
看着眼泪滴落在手心
Saturday, July 22, 2006
  my new designsdown with cold... bad flu and bad cough... slight fever sigh... why am i always getting sick... the medicines are not working... sigh... feeling terrible... sobz thot abt some stuff and yea... come to think of it i din lose anything... i just lost someone who does not cherish me for who i am but he lost someone who really care and who loves and appreciate him so deeply i guess he's at a bigger lost... a pot will always call the kettle black but in fact the pot nv knew that he is oso black!! i always believe whatever u do be it good or bad it will always reflect back to u... you gotta watch your KARMA... good things reflect goodness but if u have done things that hurt or harm someone indirectly better keep a look out when it hit back to u,it will hit u hard!! only fools believe u... and i just realise that people of the same kind flock together... rofl.... u have to learn to grow up... stop acting cute and think that you're the best in the world... coz you are not!! maybe u are still young no thinking still... always critise on other when u yourself is doing the same thing!!! fuck off la... get lost!!
Thursday, July 20, 2006
NDP pictures  C U T T E R F I S H C O M P E I T I O N S This's year programIsn't all the pic attractive haha.. but i find that this year NDP kinda bring back alot of memories during my nationals day the glory of running on the track the prize that i have won and not forgetting thoes st john pple messaging my leg after the race haha... i miss my active days... where i was really a hard core sports women! now... sigh i still wanna do sports but due to the fact that i wanna be fair i stop getting into the sun and tries to avoid it at all cost... i miss my canoeing days at sentosa... i wanna go canoe ANY TAKERS? on tuesday on my home... sudden gastric pain... it was something i nv felt before sharp peircing pain that if i bend lower the pain is worst... but if i sit up straight the pain is not so bad just pulling pain... the pain lasted till today but it was on and off... pon morning lesson when to see doc at 9 plus... from my point of view i realise that whenever i'm under stress or at a lost (depression) this old aliment will occurs but it seems weird it has been appearing more and more offten that i cannot take it anymore... rem how much i used to hate seeing doctors?? sigh... doctor suspect 4 causes to my stomach... 1. Food alledgy
2. Emotions
3. Milk intorrent
4. virus attack or smth lolx forget le but he feels that most prob milk is the main cause of my stomach bloated-ness coz i told me i love to drink milk... so what i can do now is watch wat i eat and try to avoid at all cost. MP still hanging there no improvement made... things are getting worse... i seriously scare that we will not be able to have enough time to rush out the whole project... and i feel i'm a useless group leader i cannot lead the team well... i'm a leader that will only drag the whole team down... sigh i'm lousy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Sunday, July 16, 2006
why am i so affected by your everything... ur msn nick hurts me each time i see... i believe there is more den it meets the eye... ur heart has no longer belong to me... u have change.. and it time for me to let go... i'm trying very hard very hard not to be affected by your actions and everything but sad to say so i can't... it was my mistake to have made you my everything, it was my mistake and foolishy thinking that i thot you were the one for me. i was so wrong i should not have put in everything to this relationship... but i still love u... sigh
Monday, July 03, 2006
once again i'm here to blog hohoho... yesterday was England last match in world cup... so sad they lost... sigh i held high hope for england and was sad that they lost sigh... nvm yea.. yesterday xinhui came over with her bro to watch football at my house haha lolx she keep screaming and scolding many explicit words haha i was so afraid my mama would hear it and tell her to mind her language haha... he is so crazy over beckam... whenever the screen shows beckam she would scream haha just imagine that funny scene haha lolx.... been rather stress up with FYP as i keep getting error which dun seems like an error to me la... wth... hopefully i'll be able to solve it asap wor... u know i have been thinking wat is the meaning of friends?? u know sometimes when they have no one there by their side den they will look for u if they have they dun even wanna find u or wat lor... its kinda saddening la but wat to do its life...sigh
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C U T T E R F I S H C O M P E I T I O N S
This's year program