Tuesday, May 09, 2006
been a long time since i have last updated!! well life been rather smooth lately but as for my love life i'm starting to have many uncertaincy arising. Is it because lately the both of us have been busy with projects and stuff...? or have ur feelings fade?? i dun really wanna find out. There is this stone in my heart that i wish i knew wat it was all about. But, maybe ah ma was right about speaking out my feelings to him... if i do so i have a very strong feeling we will end up arguing and maybe it might just end... maybe thats the reason why i dun wish to bring the matter up ba. he is my boyfriend but in wat way does he portray as one?? i was sick the whole of last week all u said was to ask me to take care of myself... why din u ask if i need you to accompany me home... aren't u worried that anything might just happen to me on the way home??? i know i dunno how to take good care of myself... but would you take care of me is another part of the story. he said " if you yourself dun take take of yourself well why do you expect people to take good care of you" sigh~
I miss the closeness
i want a boyfriend that would be able to Pour me with tender loving care that's all i ask for is it too much?? you want me to change... i'm trying very hard but did you even notice.. all you know was to be unhappy with my dressing the shoe i wear my attitude everything dun seems to match ur liking. I endure but i'm a ger i have feelings too... its been a long time since we had a sweet moment together... when was the last time u said i love you? when was the last time u sent me home? sigh~
i have a boyfriend but his girlfriend is always guessing his thots coz he doesn't speak up... why... all that you care was you and yourself how abt me??? was is my place in your heart?? sigh
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