my bloggy

2008-09-02T11:34:00.007+08:00

My bad my bad.. i have not updated since the day i landed on this nameless country... haha.. kidding. Yeap shall update from the day i left SG...

my sweet bunch of friend who send me off

part of my family (as it was a 7pm flight on a weekday)

Upon arriving at Sydney airport (in transit)

waited from 5am to 8am (sg time)

Staying at the Wraft overseeing the port
(❤lovey penhouse ❤)

My sleepy head

some random pics taken be'cos we r bored

the trio man haircut at korean saloonMr gabe (aka bully)

The Birth of new baby Justine
(isn't she a pretty. Look like who? keke)

ah seng with the baby

gabe the monster

LCC Bring on summer day
(when its a fweezing winter =.=)Don't be Bracist
yes yes if u all dunno.. shawnie boy is in braces haha
bring out the GAYNESS in us HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABY

yup so thats abt eveything i have to show u the stuff that i have been doing the past few months.. haha when i have time i'll have some pictures of the place i'm staying in.. currently its in a really really bad state as i've been busy with a load of 3 assignment due this week... gladly 1 down.. tml another 1 comm skill presentation and the final 1 database design on friday.. wootx I CAN'T WAIT FOR THE HOLIDAYS... i wan so much to spend some time gg out shopping and spending some quality time with baobei... super deprived of it la... he's busy with school, work and church.. so i hope during his hols we will be able to go dating again... pouts i can't even remember when we had a proper date since i came over.. roars.. oh oh did i mention that my cooking skill improve.. i made otah, sambal sting ray(1kg 2 bucks super cheap!) and mussel (of cos not my craving.. cook for my precious) haha been exploring many diff kind of food i can play with hee.. shall take pics of the food i cook next time.. muacks =)

2008-07-08T06:43:00.002+08:00

yes i'm all settled in NZ will be staying at hostel which is 10-15 mins walk to uni.. been rather stressful... had many thots in my head.. thots like i shld have gone to oz to study instead of coming here... i'm not sure my witfulness has cos so much stress to my mummy and i... they does not seem to feel good putting me here.. i dunno but all i feel is that its a new phase to my r/s with shawn.. things does not appear to be as good as it seems.. i dunno wat choice shld i do or take will be the best way out for things... sigh... its just a random rant so ya can just ignore it... cheers =)

2008-06-04T17:16:00.002+08:00

time is really passing by real quick I've only left less den 10 days before leaving to NZ... i'm rather excited but at the same time feeling fear and scared or even kinda reluctant to live a place where i've stayed for the past 22 years of my life... maybe coz it will be the 1st time that i'll be in a foreign place studying... away from all my family members... kinda scared of loneliness.. although Shawnie boy say he will be with me but he can't be with me all the time too... and i'm so shy/anti-social i dunno how am i gg to make new friends keke... i hope that i can cope well with my studies.. really scared i cannot follow the lesson and all... well many worries on my mind.. and wat makes it worst is all my friend ain't a phone call away..

my dearest kitty esp i couldn't just alight at hougang mrt station and walk to her place whenever i'm feeling down neither could i call her anytime of the day to complain/chat abt anything ohhh kitty must come visit me if possible k remember to skype with me.. 2nd person i'll miss most will be my dearest lil cousin carol~ she's the closest cousin to me just like a real sister... we are always spending our time shopping and slacking whenever we are free since she was just a baby we have been spending time together... and yes yes i know i promise i'll bring her to club once she reach 18 but i guess she gotta wait for my return hopefully during my breaks... there's so so many things i'll miss my friends, family and the lastest addition Rambo..

next friday will reach real soon sort of feeling rather emo.. trying to spend as much time with my closest friends and family. thou i'm rather happy that i can finally see my baobei and excited for the places he's gonna drive me around.. haha i'm so gonna learn my driving soon so that if my friends come visit i can drive them ard... no need baobei to fetch lol..

zzz i'll be taking quantas fight from s'pore at 1950 but i need to transit in sydney airport at s'pore 3am omg i'll be a walking zombie den 8 am den can transit the other plane to Auckland and reach there at s'pore time 12pm its a 16 hrs+ journey.. coz the 12 hour journey tix are sold out.. haha kitty i'll let u know how the transit is like den when u come visit me u will know wat to do hee... i'm so gonna miss u~ gosh... 15 july 'll be having my orentation zzz which makes me think back my freshman orentation haha.. oh well i know i can't expect the same... haha..

2008-05-13T23:23:00.002+08:00

baby happy anniversary =) keke hmmm time flies really quickly... the past 13 mths together was wonderful. Thanks to you baby. i hope our love will continue to grow in the years to come =).

we started out on the friday the 13 and now its our 13mth anniversary hee so... who say friday the 13 is unlucky *winks*

back 2 square 1

2008-05-07T23:13:00.003+08:00

He's back for a week but a week that seems so long just pass by so quickly with him around. Thou he was only here for a week, but life was great and wonderful. It was a wonderful week and it was well spent hee. He was staying at his mother's friend place at serangoon. It's a empty 2 room flat very nicely furnish and cosy.. at first he's been staying with me at my place cause we couldn't find the blanket and some other stuff only till the last 2 days den we stayed there hee.. nice feeling thou =)

I'm so glad he had to came back for some reason but still we were able to spend some time together after being separated for a month. It was terrible feeling, it is like the famous saying of "so near yet so far" we chat everyday but the feeling was different as compared to having each other side by side it's just not the same without him being with me. Like a statement on wedding ceremony

It is not these words that have made your marriage real, but the God of love,
who has welded your hearts together as one. He has said, "For this cause shall a
man leave his father and mother and shall be joined unto his wife and the two
shall become one flesh."

i remember this statement from my cousin's church wedding.. its when two person become one that's what wedding is all about.. but anyway i was saying that we feel inseparable.. yes yes we are still in honeymoon period but still life is simply too good to be true..

2008-05-04T23:53:00.001+08:00

This is a wonderful clip from godtube.. it remind us of how he cleared all man kind from sins on calvary..

2008-04-24T00:40:00.004+08:00

I'm so tired with backaches, burns and cut everywhere =( now i understand how hard foodcourt stall vendors ran a stall... its not as easy as it seems to be. The rental are HIGH and taking my aunt stall into consideration, must earn at least $500 everyday which in other words is just enough to cover rentals ONLY which means it excludes daily expenses such as electricity water and gas bill on top of that u still need to fork out min of 1.3k per worker u hire..

thou I'm actually sort of a free labour and i only help during lunch time ard 12-3 plus. Just helping 3 hours or more a day already cause bodyaches. its due to that fact that you are constantly standing not that i don't wanna sit down but firstly there isn't much resting time as each customer's order must be expedite as quickly as possible and you need to have super duper good memory to rem all 5 or 6 orders and it must be in order and secondly there's no chair in the stall unless you walk to the seat outside the stall which is not possible as someone is needed to be at the counter to handle the orders in another word standing is your only choice...

please dun blame or give colour to the stall vendors when u have to wait for ard 10mins for your meal.. if you wan it to be fast u must understand that if you wan fresh food you gotta wait meat dun get cook within seconds. working in food courts had made me understand alot of things that me and u could even imagine.. well i'm not trying to say that all vendors does the same thing but you'll have to judge on your own judgement. Food such as soup, rice, gravy, may be kept overnight till the next day morning if they are not being sold out the day itself. Raw chicken, fish , prawn, beef.... (the list will go on and on) YOU will never know how many days it had been marinated and lying in the fridge before a customer walks in and order it. i know it sounds like a major turn off but yes yes many stall vendors are still doing it mainly they cannot afford to have fresh food everyday definately there's leftover but still i'm sure all vendors will try to give customer the best freshness as possible.

so next time if you are in a que in the food court waiting for you meal.. pls take time to think nad not start shouting at the vendors when your food do not arrive that instance.

=Peace Out=

monkey is here to wish everyone good night =)

Mr Blackie?!

2008-04-21T23:49:00.006+08:00

woootx i received a parcel from my baobei!!

ohhh its a black gorilla..

see how cute Mr blackie is =)

My monkey & blackie rilla

finally =)

2008-04-19T21:43:00.004+08:00

yes yes i've finally revived my bloggy haha oh well this will the the very 1st entry for the year 2008 hopefully not the last... i dun wan my poor blog to rot with webs and spiders living in it hee... and and i have a great news my baobei will be coming back for a week here as his granny is unable to cope with the weather in nz well i hope she's ok.. thou its only a week but i hope it will be well spend.. i can't express how much or how happy i am but YES i'm very excited thou he's been away for only a month but it feels like forever and handling a long distance relationship is exceptionally difficult esp with the time diff of 4 hours (well it was 5 hours initially before daylight saving). I miss you so badly baby i'm so gonna look forward to the 28 hee.. =)

baobei i'll be looking forward to your arrival =)

2007-06-25T23:01:00.000+08:00

baobei and i

just got back from my genting trip with my family and baobei. it was my boy's 1st trip there hee.. i bet he must had enjoyed himself lots there esp the 2nd night or rather day (fun from all the theme park rides plus swimming pool and games) =x lol oh well during the whole trip we had 2 portable lamp around us ahha namely marcus and brandon haha.. but they are a bunch of cuties la so its alright.. lol had lotsa fun there coz its special with him around haha oh well carol u miss all the fun aye... nvm i will not forget to invite u along when we are gg for our next trip alright hee..

oh well good things are short lived. not long after we reach back home we went off to meet kitty for supper. you know wat?? the bus that we took crash not long after it left my house bus stop and i was on the bus. i totally freak out and lucky thing was that he was beside me.. phew i dunno wat will happen if he's not around.. it scare the shit outta me... lol

alrighty, its getting late gotta rest le *off to bed*

2007-05-31T02:44:00.000+08:00

Pissed

2007-05-29T22:30:00.000+08:00

oh well there goes another day at work... wootx work till 830 in office and i can practically just drop dead any moment coz i'm dead tired... before i go on ranting... HAPPY BIRTHDAY 20 BELLEY muacks hope u had an enjoyable day ya!! huggies~ ok back to my rants.. as i was saying i work till 830 today.. why because yesterday was a holiday for many country and due to that the damn customers can only do yesterday transactions today so i had like a rim thick of paper transaction to key into the system.. i'm like damn drowsy seeing all the words on the paper... alright i dun deny the fact that i start to get sleepy when i see words... the words simply starts floating and its telling me to go to slp whahaha lame nonsense la... oh well... watever it is there is still another battle tml as its month end!!!!!!! i'm dead tired so the next thing i'm gg to say is that......

"off to bed i go......"

2007-05-16T00:16:00.000+08:00

started working le... which means slacking days are over... damn... was rather pissed la.. but watever la.. dun wish to talk abt it la huh... sianzation...

2007-04-24T20:46:00.000+08:00

yes i leaving for taiwan tml~ yippie...

2007-04-16T11:12:00.000+08:00

oh well... been gg out very often recently yea~ hmmm out on wednesday , whole of friday and half of sunday ahhaha... cool huh~ many things happen in between which had make me think a lot... which i dun think my brain cna take it anymore but yea.. take things slowly.. i guess i just have to find some sort of guts to say out!! SEARCHING 50% LOADED hopefully tonight i have the guts to say wat i wanna say~ but argh i just dunno where and how to bring the topic out... like wtf right~ my dearest lindy tell me that "take it as it is , if he like u should let him know" i was like abt to say it last night but i just cannot find the guts to say it out... I'M USELESS BITCH~

d i l e m m a

2007-04-11T00:28:00.000+08:00

Never in my life

Have I been so

Confused, as I am right now.

Which way to turn,

Which way to go.

I'm lost and don't Know the right lane.

I don't know where I'm going,

don't knowWhere I'll end up,

I don'tWant to make a mistake.

To do, or not to do That is the question

That is tearing me apart

From the inside out.

Do what is right,Or what is easy?

So much pressure

Like never felt before."No pressure, I assure",

But then what is this

Hurt, indecisive feeling

Radiating from within me?

Tears from my eyes

Can say neither yes,Nor no.

So that leaves me

With no decision- still.

A ball of nerves, all in

My head, startle me into

A place that I don'tWant to be in at all.

I scream, hoping it's not

Too late, that it won't scar.

Me, but especially you.

No harmWas meant to come your way.

My stupid indecisiveness

Caught me, at a time when,

I needed stability most, and doing

Am I strong enough?Please tell me so.

sigh~ rather troubled i would say... too many things are happening at the same time... how to handle? shocked, dumb-founded, tense, zzz mixed up emotion... wth.. why suddenly so complicated... been thinking alot lately which has cause me sleepless nights. Was it better that i play ignorant? should not have led him to confession... everything was just too fast.. *slow down* awww i wish i could.. i should have noticed it earlier... din really felt it till recently he ask me for a movie... no doubt he's nice, caring, hilarious guy and no doubt i feel a lil... but it all came too fast for me to react.. maybe the good lord has heard me?? and this is his answer? its the begining... afraid to hurt anyone... coz i feel that he might regret if i... were to say...my condition? argh~ *cries*

oh well what has happen already begun... no point dwelling on it... let's take things a step at a time... if able to progress is a bonus i would say... or am i too soft to not let all this happen... sigh~ how much do i wanna know, how much do i wanna hold back... protecting myself neglecting the other party?? am i selfish... or just, still do not have that kind of faith in guys... many doubts and many questionable areas which would eventually affect the overall conclusion?!? Yes, i do not deny the fact that i'm quite happy when i receive his sms-es or call but still.. but still why do i feel so weird?

2007-03-19T14:42:00.000+08:00

photo of our night out to CLEO's 50 most eligible bachelors party at St.James... oh well wat can i say... its held at St James not to mention that it is famous for the older crowds and music sucks... hmm my friend Roy was like tell me erm not tell me in fact is to warned me abt the sucky music it has there and keep on asking me to go zouk to find him... zzz

recalling wat ha happen that day... hmmm i was suppose to meet kitty at hougang station @ abt 4 but my dearest kitty say that her place is raining cats and dogs so i tell her why not we meet later when there isn't anymore rain... she said ok and i continue my project designing and happily design till i forget the time to bath lol... hahah anyway i was later to meet kitty... so i went downstairs to flag for a cabby and when i went up the cabby i realise that i nv bring my HP out... so i ask the uncle if it is possible for him to make a turn back to my house... the dumb uncle said no and insist i get down the stop after hougang point and will not charge... man its a long way back home just to get my handy but bo bian so i rush home get handy and rush out to flag for cabby again....zzz wat an unlucky day lol

2007-02-25T23:22:00.000+08:00

This is kinda cool haha tried it out and i'm only worth 1.31 million

2007-01-27T23:01:00.000+08:00

depress damn depress my baobei baby lappy is smash... haiz angry at the same time sad... i dunno wat do or say... Apparently my mummy wanna take down a framed painting on the wall *huge painting* and my lappy was at the dinning table which was directly below the painting... i have no idea wat happen in between coz i was out.... so from wat i heard was that the painting hit the mounted speaker on the wall and and it drop onto my lappy with the mouse in-between the screen and the kepboard which made the screen worst..... and my mummy fell onto her butt but lucky thing she is alright.. as i mention earlier on that i was out shopping with kitty so when i receive the sms from my mummy, i can say that i was in total lost of mood to shop for my CNY clothes... so i just walk around with them thou i have the urge to go home fast... but ya i dun wanna be a wet blanket.. sigh... i really wanna repair this lappy but even thou it is under warranty but it does not cover accident on the product... so i guess it will cost a bomb... mummy says to get a new lappy but... the feeling will be differen le.. i love this lappy lots.. just imagine.. i have nv drop it once nor stack anything on it nor have it knock against anything... that is how much i took care of it... unlike my hp which drop like no tml and change like free... and its now all SMASH not by me but sigh........ wth... i'm seriouly in lost of emotion and words to say anymore... i have the urge to take it immediately to the service center to have it repair but the damn service center is only open on monday to friday 9 - 6 which is damn impossible to have it fix la...
coz i have to work... unless i take mc to bring it for repair...damn i am oso to be blame for this la who ask me to bring it out of the study room... its all my fault... damn!!!

outter cover

un turned on(see the cracks)

its worst when its turn on

2006-12-10T23:30:00.000+08:00

ally tan is officially down with depression... my entire family is GOING HOLIDAY sigh due to attachment i cannot tag along which = sianzation + depression + lonely (pouts + leg kicking + teary) i wan my mummy....!! sad been rather sad coz i cannot tag along mainly coz my mummyn is my everything i admit i always think too much... but u know somethings is hard not to think abt it. my mummy being my only close family i have its obvious that i will feel scare is let say anything misfortune will be happen (touch wood) but i obviously dun wish it happen la... i cannot deny the fact that i am very scare to lose anyone close to me especially my ever dearest mummy.... i'm scared... but wat can i do abt it... sigh

"Dear lord pls keep my family safe and sound bless them with travelling
mercy and keep them constantly at ur side lord, pls hear my prayer"

2006-11-28T22:42:00.000+08:00

贤有天,开始做梦,无边无际的梦。

时间久了,这样的梦做久了，竟也以为自己是梦中的人。

从此，活在梦中。

等你爱我，心变得好温柔,每个眼神好象都把我看透；
等你爱我，不再怕寂寞，只要想起你曾经拥抱我,就有莫名的快乐。

有一些话不用再多说，想你应该都能够感受，

握你的手,像握住整个宇宙；只要你给我的,永远不嫌多。

不经意的拿起你的衣服,时间倒回走，

第二颗小钮扣，像美丽的传说，

即使短短一刻,幸福味道停留在胸口，

谁都不能够从我手中偷走。

等你爱我，不管还要多久，只要你开口我都愿为你守候；
等你爱我，是一种享受，只要看见你眼睛里有我，我就觉得很快乐。

每个人的人生都有自己的选择，而我的选择，更多的只是付出。

如果有一天你真的选择不再爱我，

那么，你我将成为陌路人，

相间之时没有言语，没有留恋，

你我行色匆匆，只是在擦身的瞬间，

我们会不约而同的转回头，

然后流着眼泪继续上路，

把关怀深藏在我们记忆的深处。

心里的天慢慢黑了，黑暗里的心慢慢疼了。

也许应该放手了，把心一并也放逐。

贤贤

2006-11-27T22:59:00.000+08:00

i'm farking and i mean farking angry with the new guy la... he is so farking slow... write slow talk slow walk slow EVEN type oso freaking slow gosh can he so freaking speed up.... dun pull down the whole team and cause everyone to do overtime fuck you!!! pls be more efficient in ur work can!!!

2006-11-26T23:13:00.000+08:00

ally is finally blogging again!!!

-no more cobwebs-

alright...girls i'm finally updating my blog yea.. dun complain that its rotting or i have died or smth well i'm just plain lazy to update as working life is super tired.. i have so many shit stuff to say yet i have to lil time to blog all out... yea i'm suppose to blog abt my b'dae but yea... the process of the video is not out yet.. i simply have no time for anything... dear lord can u pls give me 48 hours a day?? so i can work 9-630 and sleep and play for the next 24 hours... haha dream on yea... i know i know my retarded-ness is out again... well who gives a damn abt it hahah. well i would like to thank all my girls for turning up on my b'dae and making it a special one. A special thanks to shane as he turn up knowing the fact that he hardly know anyone but yes boy thanks for turning up. Was kinda expecting jw to turn up but.. kinda disappointing la... he din!! sad =( oh well whatever is it.. its over! haha. okay..

ATTACHMENT

-Good Morning/Afternoon, OCBC bank, Alicia Speaking. How may i assits you!-

sucks la.. its phone calls and phone calls and more phone calls. zzz SERIOUSLY i have never made so many calls nor receive so many calls in one day throughout my 21 years of pathetic life.. gosh this is insane...! haha but its kinda eye opener to me as i get to meet different type of pple.. the super impatient (imediately call back after i just hang up the phone as the CSO requested is busy wth) and the super slow talker (like they have the time in the world and speak super duper slow) not forgeting mr and ms nice and Jokers ahhaa they do bring some joy to my working experience. Not forgetting the dozing off time when i do not get any calls or when i have nth to do!!! my supervisor carol even state that i ma chaim partying so many foodstuff hahaha... i simply told her that i will fall asleep so need to keep myself awake and she say she will give me more work to do haha... wat i can say is that i simply LOVE lunch time... coz i have been eating like i have not been eaten for millions of years... haha coz i simply dun feel full... i think there are a millions of worm waiting for me to feed,thats why i'm hungry all the time... lol. i tell u... my office look like a war scene la... all the renovation is killing me as my most hatered sound (drilling) is constanly appearing....zzz and its so noisy i cannot even hear what the customer is trying to say to me.. POUTS tml onwards will be killer day in office as 3 of my NYP mates are gone my goodie friend small green is not there to send me work and off work and entertain me when i'm bored i so gonna rot my life away haha...

i'll miss u

2006-10-31T22:24:00.000+08:00

祝我生日快乐

2006-10-21T23:03:00.000+08:00

FRIDAY

look at how surprisingly CLEAN my study table is!!!

i found a new gadget

her name is "ALLYIA" i got her from hougang point lol

see!!! proof of purchase lol

isn't my table super clean haha lol allyia did a good job haha lol...

monday

First day of SIP (student internship program) haha gosh i was so excited at the same time scared that i could not slp well on sunday night... haha anyway... GOOD NEWS i'm not under the same project with him lol *3 cheers* but i'm still stuck with him in the same building zzzz wtf right lol anyway he is in the 25 floor while i'm in 12 floor hohoho... me and jas was so happy to know that we are not in the same department as him but on the other hand kinda sad coz we are not working together... well anyway my job scope is Telesales and Order taking and i have my own desk whahaha. 1st day of work was freaking boring damn difficult to kill time as i had nth to do ang slack my way till 630. my department had just renovated the office and everyone is so busy settling down thus we the 3 new interns we neglected till abt 3 den we are brief-ed lol... arrmoo suay she kena do admin sia la wat does admin and telesales gotta do with IT zzz lunch time at raffles is killer... its so super duper pack and guess wat they book seat using packets of tissue paper and worst comb... lol so style ar lol... anyway after a long an dboring day at work i headed home and i reach home abt 8 zzz shag~

Tuesday

slack the whole afternoon as it was a holiday, thou was gg out with riki but due to the heavy rain i had to leave house at 3 plus 4 lol we went bugis to shop for our office wear... i felt so peiseh coz its the 1st time a shop with a guy as in have to try clothes after clothes de lol... peiseh coz he in the female department will be like out of place de... lol anyway i had an enjoyable day out with him haha....

Today

Arrange to meet as usual before gg to office aysha was the 1st at abt 8 plus followed by me at 820 den feng and finally my dearest JASMINE lol haha... today at office was rather fun and enjoying thou i dunno anything but still i have learn quite a bit. 9- 10 i was staring into space and exploring their window application to enter data to the database but have no idea how it work so i just right click click left click click... den at abt 10 plus... *yeah* got 2 piece of paper for me to process and i finish it within 5 min zzz and back to slacking, while jas and aysha was gg round whole office pasting stickers on the fliper, table, drawer and keys. i just entertain them by chatting with them for a while and back to a stack of paper to process... haha in office when u are free u are damn free but once u have work u will be damn busy haha... i had even delay my lunch time coz i wanna finish processing the work before i leave my table... see wta i mean by that... lol anyway my workload peaks at abt 11-2 plus and subside at abt 3 so i went to help out with the pasting coz i had nth better to do whahahah.... and yes i oso help them out in asking question from my fellow office friends regarding their workstation and if they had any problem...zzzz poor jas always had to do the work while the other keep disappearing zzzz... so i accompany her since i'm building castle in the air haha... i so wanna take photo in my office la but damn phone de camera got sound cannot take i will peiseh de...lol after helping them till abt 4 plus i had working to do again... back to paper processing till 6 and did filing while jas had nth to do too lol... well that end my kinda busy day... and i was so tired i slp on the train and bus... gosh wat happen when i have to do paper processing at the sma etime telesales gosh won't i end up slpin in office whahahhaha lol... bleahz...

2006-10-20T00:33:00.000+08:00

real life vs bear (so damn cute la)

today was the briefing for my sip... haiz sianzation tml must call up ocbc to check on dress code, when to report, which branch we are posted to etc... zzz i'm so in love with 宫 la thou i watch finish le la but i feel like getting the vcd la coz the bear inside so damn freakingly cute la... lol anyway back to my sip thingy la... ya today he saw me and he can actually act all so nice infront of me wtf are u trying to prove!!!

scene 1

he: (whack with paper) 听说你和我一样 OCBC 的哦！！

me: (stun)(wtf) i dunno!(actual fact i KNOW)

he: eh ur supervisor Shaw Wen right? (smile)

me: i dunno (walk off and ignore)

(turn to ah kee)

me: wtf la whack me!!

kee: he can still act like nth happen la!!

(all du lan and ignore the fool)

scene 2

shaw wen: is this all my lost sheep??

he: ya la cher u so long!!

shaw wen: (explaining sip thingy)

suddenly soon aik came and ask shaw wen who is LOW！！

shaw wen: (stun) huh L-O-W hmmm dunno (laugh)

soon aik den went to hunt for this low person

-10mins-

after that soon aik come back again

soon aik: shaw... erms mr yeak who is low shui.....

shaw wen: oh... blk 4 lvl 6 go find

soon aik: (ask toopid qns) can u describe her??

he: (smart alex) tall, slim, very gor - chers one (gorgeous) (laughing to himself)

kee: someone with 2 eyes 1 nose 1 mouth lor

me: (laughing) (whisper to kee) he is making a fool of himself gorgeous become gor-cher lei hahahah

he: (realise he said it wrongly)(black face)

me : IGNORE (dumb fool)

=THE END=

so how?? enjoy my lil story that happen today zzz he wanna act smart must oso know how to act smart la dun end up looking like a fool haiz... paaa bo!!

2006-10-18T01:21:00.000+08:00

小小的甜蜜(tiny lil sweetness)

You know the moment i saw this pic on a webby it bring backs lots of memories abt the playground downstairs haha... oh well it has become the past... no point dwelling on it haha... damn!! been in pain for the whole day... i was awaken by a pain in my neck at abt 930 this morning and couldn't return to my slp, so i wake up and slp on sofa and watch tv but i'm freaking tired but the pain is so painful i can't slp.... zzzz and i wen t to dig for the plaster to remove muscle ache de... paste 3 piece on my neck and shoulder and went to bed and try to slp at 11. i slp till 4 plus in the afternoon la... wake up cook porridge for lunch. but den the damn pain is still there... i was like a robot for the whole day la... cannot turn my head la... i hardy can do anything....watch tv must dunno change how many time position before i could really concentrate on my tv show... damn till now 130 am still pain... wtf how to remove this dumb pain in the neck... haiz....

with this pain... dunno tml can go clubbing not... zzz oh ya i better turn in soon gg to meet tingz for movie tml at 12.... nitey muacks =)

2006-10-17T21:11:00.000+08:00

Korean love story

" I have a boyfriend who grew up with me. His name is Jin. I always thought of him as a friend until last year, when we went to a trip from a club. I found that I fell in love with him. Before that trip was over, I took a step and confessed my love for him. And soon, we became a pair of lovers, but we loved each other in different ways.I always concentrated on him only, but by his side, there were so many other girls. To me, he was the only one, but to him, maybe I was just another girl."Jin, do you want watch a movie?" I asked. "I can't" "Why? You need to study at home?" I felt disappointment grabbing me. "No! I am going to meet a friend!" He was always like that. He met girls in front of me, like it was nothing. To him, I was just a girlfriend. The word 'love' only came out from my mouth.Since I knew him, I had never heard him say 'I love you' before. To us, there weren't any anniversaries at all. He didn't say anything from the first day and it continued till 100 days 200days. Everyday, before we say goodbye, he would just hand me a doll, everyday! Without fail. I don't know why. Then one day: Me:Um, Jin, I...Jin:Whati...don't drag, just say.. Me:I love you. Jin:Um, just take this doll and go home. That was how he ignored my 'three words' and handed me the doll. Then he disappeared, like he was running away. The dolls I received from him everyday, filled my room, one by one. There were many. Then one day came, my 15th year old birthday. When I got up in the morning, I pictured a party with him, and stranded myself in my room, waiting for his call. But...lunch passed, dinner passed...and soon the sky was dark...he still didn't call.......... It was already tiring to look at the phone anymore. Then around 2am in the morning, he suddenly called me and woke me from my sleep. He told me to come out of the house. Still, I felt joy and I ran out happily. Me:Jin! Jin:Here! Take this... Again, he handed me a little doll. Me:What's this? Jin:I didn't give it to you yesterday, so I am giving it to you now. I'm going home now, bye. Me:Wait, wait! Do you know what today is? Jin:Today? Huh? I felt so sad, I thought he would remember my birthday. He turned around and walked away like nothing had happen. Then I shouted-"Wait!"Jin:You have something to say?Me:Tell me, tell me you love me... Jin:What?! Me:Tell me! I put my pathetic self behind and clung on to him. But he just said simple cold words and left. "I don't want to say that I love someone so easily, if you are desperate to hear it, then find someone else." That was what he said. Then he ran off. My legs felt numb and I collapsed to the ground. He didn't want to say it easily. How could he... I felt that... Maybe he is not the right guy for me... After that day, I stranded myself at home crying, just crying. He didn't call me, although I was waiting. He just continued handing me a little doll every morning outside my house. That's how those dolls piled up in my room everyday. After a month, I got myself together and went to school. But what made the pain resurface was that. I saw him on a street with another girl. He had a smile on his face, one that he never showed me as he touched the doll. I ran straight back home and looked at the dolls in my room, and tears fell. Why did he gave these to me. Those dolls are probably picked out by some other girls. In a fit of anger, I threw the dolls around. Then suddenly, the phone rang. It was him. He told me to come out to the bus stop outside my house. I tried to calm myself down and walked to the bus stop. I kept reminding myself that I am going to forget him, it's going to end. Then he came into my sight, holding a big doll. Jin:Jo, I thought you were pissed, you really came? I couldn't help hating him, acting like nothing had happen and joking around. Soon, he held out the doll as usual.Me:I don't need it. Jin:What? Why?I grabbed the doll from his hands and threw it on the road. Me:I don't need this doll, I don't need it anymore!! I don't want to see a person like you again! I spitted out all the words that were inside me. But unlike other days, his eyes very shaking. "I'm sorry" He apologized in a tiny voice. He then walked over to the road to pick up the doll. Me:You stupid! Why are you picking up the doll?! Just throw it away!!!But he ignored me and just went to pick the doll.Then... Honk~ Honk~ With a loud honk, a big truck was heading towards him. "Jin! Move! Move away!" I shouted.But he didn't hear me, he squatted down and picked up the doll. "Jin, move!"HONK~!! "Boom!" That sound, so terrifying. That's how he went away from me. That's how he went away without even opening his eyes to say one word to me. After that day, I had to go through everyday with guiltiness and the sadness of losing him. And after spending two months like a crazy person. I took out the dolls. Those were the only gifts he left me since the day we started going out.I remembered the days I spent with him and started to count the days- when we were in love. "One,two,three..." That was how I started to count the doll "Four hundred and eighty four?four hundred and eighty five.." It all ended with 485 dolls. I then started to cry again, with a doll in my arms. I hugged it tightly, then suddenly "I love you~, I love you~" I dropped the dolls,shocked. "I..lo..ve you??" I picked up the dolls and pressed its stomach. "I love you~ I love you~" It can't be! I pressed all the dolls' stomach as it piled on the side. "I love you~" "I love you~" "I love you~" Those words came out non-stop. Why didn't I realize that.......... That his heart was always by my side, protecting me. Why didn't I realize that he love me this much! I took out the doll under the bed and pressed it's stomach, that was the last doll, the one that fell on the road. It had his blood stain on it. The voice came out, the on that I was missing so much."Jo! Do you know what today is? We've been loving each other for 486 days. Do you know what 486 is? I couldn't say I love you. Um! since I was too shy.. If you forgive me and take this doll, I will say that I love you everyday..till I die. Jo, I love you!" The tears came flowing out of me.......... Why? Why? I asked god, why do I only know about all this now? He can't be by my side, but he loved me until his last minute. For that and for that reason.. to me.. it became courage to live a beautiful life.". *~The End~*

2006-10-17T18:41:00.000+08:00

i'm dying of boredom zzz haha no one pei me go out... i wanna go out any takers???? zzzzzz http://www.xuanxuan.com/games/game2574.html been playing this game but i keep dying wootx hahaha....

2006-10-16T19:22:00.000+08:00

my new top
i'm kinda bored anyhow design de haha...

meet mama at people's park de kopitiam for lunch after church yesterday... haha after that went town shopping with her lol... and she got me this top for my retro night ahaha nice ma?? lol happy *winks* haha a bit plain but yea i gg to enhance it with accessories ahha lol... damn sian la... oh ya good news i dun have to look after little jon this week so u all can ask me out le... haha i wanna go shopping, watch movie and CLUBBING hahahah before SIP starts... lol mama oso bought 2 tops ahha after walking in the damn bloody crowed street and carry bags of stuff mama went to buy some snack before we headed home.

back home!!! no DINNER so mama ask if anyone wanna eat fried rice (actually everyone except me wanted) but den i insist that i HATE fried rice and wanna go ave 8 there buy porridge eat, my 2 didi heard i buying porridge decided to follow me and mama fried rice no business lol!!! ok actually not just 2 didi wanna eat my godma oso wanna eat haha see i started the ave 8 porridge trend at my house without fail every weekend will eat de... untill the aunty there oso know i dun like to add chong hahaha.... actually is xinhui intro me eat de den i start liking it hohoho... it took me abt 40 mins buying 4 bowls of porridge, 3 bottle of ma ti drink and a bus ride home!! lol the 2 irritating brothers never once dun qurrel de... i ask marcus to carry the porridge (coz they put 2 porridge in one bag so total 2 bags) den this marcus must ask brandan to take his wallet, and of coz didi will get angry and start fighting la... i was like a PEACEMAKER dotxx had to stop them so i tell didi nvm hold for ur kor kor k... so we walk to the bus stop to wait for bus, once reach bus stop didi pass back marcus wallet and marcus start shouting at him "why why!! cannot hold for me ar!!!" i was like dunno wat to do sia... everyone at the bus stop was looking la... zzzzzz den came a sandwitch packed 72 and the wallet was pass back peacefully.... back home enjoy my lovely dinner... yummy....

after dinner godma dig out all the old pics... gosh i look so nerdy with that big plastic specs la.... i keep laughing at that ugly childhood of mind haha and i rem once i went new zealand with my godma and mama we went up the mountain called "Mount Cook" wat a name right... haha once the plane landed... i stood at the snow below my feet and scoop a lil snow and put in my mouth... haha and i was like only 7 years old... oh ya and it was all flim down!! zzzzzzz haha show u all the pic.... lol

lil small ally

2006-10-14T15:32:00.000+08:00

i'm damn bored... kena thrown at home coz my mama they all went to turf club WITHOUT me.... zzzzz later gg over to xinhui place lol her dumb computer siao siao la.... hahah

good news to all who is dying for me to intro shane... HE IS COMING TO MY BIRTHDAY PARTY!!!! woohoo... lol he damn idert de la keep saying he gotta work end up oso say he will come idert de la...lol he's just dumb... so to my besties u all will get to see the well known shane (among us de mi mi ) hohoho... can't wait... haha doo doo wan me to intro right haha my b'dae i shall intro him to u bleahz... anyway he say he will only stay for a while nia... zzzz he peiseh coz dunno anyone except eve lol... abt 2 more weeks to my b'dae... lol wat u all getting for me.... heeeee =)

2006-10-14T14:56:00.000+08:00

overview of the entire week!!!!!!!

lindy dearie belated b'dae celebrations

neoPrints taken on that day!!!

acting cute with my mousey look!!

ok i'm not looking at the camera!!

not looking still!!!

finally i'm looking at the camera!!

stupid xin hui wanna proof that my face is bloody small ask me to take the cup and put infront of my face to tell me how small my face is... zzzzzz

my new york's fish anf chipzzzz YUMMY!!!!

the scary celebrations...

the never seen before footage lolx

for thoes that have not taken the pics
get ur pics here!!

http://allymoomoocow.multiply.com/photos/album/21

2006-10-11T13:21:00.000+08:00

damn!!!

wth... i thot it was all over why why why am i still stuck with the arse... spare me the tormental... i had enough during mp and now sip why argh... i complain to my mama and she know i same as the arse and she was like haiyo why like that... den i say bo bian lor FATED like my ass argh.... du lan ar....

2006-10-10T23:27:00.000+08:00

hahahaha my birthday invitations are OUT lolx i bet most of my friends who i have already met up recently should receive my invitations le... hahaha i getting very excited at the same time worried.... excited coz its my 21 b'dae with a theme (1st time i hope it will be a successful one) i wan it to be the best and most memorable one.... worried coz i dunno how to keep my guest entertain at the same time having them to enjoy the party instead of feeling bored.... sigh

been rather busy thinking and planning for my big day food la, cake la, deco la, best dress la, so many many many things aiyoyo.... zzzzzzzzz head big ar.... haiz.... below are a few theme that i ahve considered haha and i choose RETRO as it is easy to source for retro clothes as compare to the rest hahahah.... i really really hope all my friend can really really dress up for my party PLEASE..................

1. Retro
2. Cow boy/gal
3. Princess like
4. Mexican
5. Returning to school
6. In the jungle
7. Traffic Light ( heard this from a friend whose friend had a party themed traffic light- everyone had to dress in green, amber and red.)
8. Fairytale (kinda like a Shrek gathering) / Cartoon characters
9. Hollywood / glamour / va-va-voom
10. Beach holiday
11. Shanghai Night1
2. Egyptian
13. Enchanted woods (pixies, elves, grooms, )
14. Bollywood Fever
15. Arabian night
16. Geek

feel like gg to this event wooo hoo gonna ask my clubbing mates le....

2006-09-27T00:29:00.000+08:00

haha went to xinhui place haha this is she help me design de haha nice ma.. i was marinading the chicken wings for tml de bbq but den ar i keep on cooking it to eat haha i ate 3 la =x hahah hmmm all thoes gg to bbq de are u excited to eat my chickens wings haha.. bleahz....

sorry moo moo dun angry le...

zzzzzzzz

2006-09-24T01:21:00.000+08:00

hohoho... friday was a bad bad day for me in the begining... had a damn sucky paper which suppos eto be 2 hours but i only used 45min faithfully and left the room after 1 hr of the paper.. like wth right... oh watever... i just pray hard enough and hope dear lord will hear my prayer and bless that i'll be able to pass my paper... i'll be more den thankful enough...after i came out of the room i ask pi and ting how was the paper ahah... same respond "DIE" wtf... aiya... dooms le... hack la anyway after that i went to find belle at club room to take the PJ that she bought for me hohoho... and leave for lavenda... went to change my passport photo hmmm look kinda hmmm dunno wat to say la anyway it took me bearly 10 mins to get everything done cool aye...

finally step into bugis after hmmm 1 week hmmm not long la but its been a few months since i last step foot into bugis street.... haha went shopping at bugis like no tml... ting buy so many thing and i'm still empty handed.. wth right haha imagine shopping for like erms... since 1 plus till 5 wow i can ren not to buy anything haha i'm the best yea...

after that went to bugis to meet kitty mao... she ar... not peiseh de la... can make me wait for her like no tml la.. i told her i go walk walk 1st reach den call wah... cannot lei damn idert de la haha oh ya did i mention that i went home 1st before i met kitty mao ya so when i was at my house de bus stop waiting for 88 suddenly xinhui pop infront of me la gave me a shock whahaha its so qiao la dunno if she is stalking me not whahahhha... and ya she oso gg to bishan and double qiao haha... haha oh ya back to kitty mao she finish at 615 but den nearly 7 den reach bishan wth... u sit snail ar haha just kidding la... smiles... damn hungry le la... haha den when to far east eat chicken rice but den dissappointed quality down le... pouts... its really not my day la... kitty mao went out with me coz i wanna get my tube dress the cherry de awwww.... *melts* but nb... not my day... my dress no new de i dun wan buy.. pls la so many pple try le loose le lor and expect me to pay 40 bucks for it NO WAY!!!! haha.. so ya went walking around to see if there is anymore such dresses.. but sadly none...! end up i have to pei kitty mao shop instead of she having to pei me... why?? coz she ended up buying a dress, 2 top and 2 puzzzle look at that so i was AGAIN pei-ing pple shopping... haha and ya i was shocked to see shane at ps whahaha i dunno why i see him i super happy but ya he actually walk towards me and chat la haha -smiles widly- but no worries i treat him just a normal friend i just dun understand why i keep bumping into him after me and ys broke up... it is fate.. like he said we are very fated to meet... haha he ask if i'm watching movie or gg back and stuff ahha hmmm but ya he was watching movie and i;m shopping but i just din catch wat movie is he watching anyway hack la... haha just to happy to say anything to shane ahahaha anyway at ps pei the kitty shop again la.. haha sian and i told her i wanna be home by 10 to watch my show end up i reach home at 1030 wth.. see la make me waste cab fare home... slap!!!!

2006-09-09T01:02:00.000+08:00

wednesday clubbing was great and fun haha but den too many army guys... assholes haha irritating guys keep getting near us wanna get a smack from the both of us izzit or u dunno how to write the word "die" ar... hohoho... i got so scare when a idert guy dance so super close to me... i quickly grab jas kee ask her help me... lolx damn irritating guys... fark off la.... even wanna get our number... sorry guys we ain't a "anything" kinda gers.... guys are despo enough to get number from gers... and gers who give guys number are not decent after all... hohoho... bless thoes who know pple from club... hahah

before clubbing

*will upload pics during clubbing later*

thursday went sentosa with C074 hohoh and some other guys... supposingly it is like a farewell thingy coz wx gg to china and jon gg to thailand... pouts... haha

pictures on that day enjoy:

me and belle on the way to hougang station

xiang da ge our tour guide cum organiser of the day!!

yandao and me on bus on the way to sentosa

foursome at our destination!!
ps: wx is holding my ball which in the end got stuck on the tree sigh~

the simpletons

my yandao is trying to prove to me that he can float!!!

MALE stripper SPOTED

wanted crimminal escaping by swimming

xiang ge and me

4 babes missing ONE *ahem*

its us again before leaving....

on SILOSO word!!!

i'm so gonna miss him when he goes to thailand!!! *hugs*

*will have more when i get from jas lee*

2006-09-06T14:41:00.000+08:00

tonight is party night at MOS or MoMo!!!!!!!!!!!!

2006-09-05T03:02:00.000+08:00

i seriously need someone to cheer me up badly.... is there anyone out there???

i really wish to call xx and chat with him coz i really need someone to be by my side now!!! thou i sms-ed him yesterday abt 5 am i know and guess he would be aslp le but still i tried cos i know he used to slp very late... (not to sure abt now thou) i sms-ed him with a mindset that he would just ignore me.. cos he said not to contact him anymore... but i really have no one to turn to... my friends wouldn't like to me speaking abt him... so i can't turn to them... and i choose to turn to u... but u were aslp le... shock to receive ur sms today... rather thankful... u said i can always call u and chat now... but... on the other hand i'm afraid that you are doing this out of pity?? and fear that it will bring u trouble.. i dun wan to put u at a spot... so today i shan't call anyone... i must learn to face it on my own... i must be strong.. even if i'm not... i must accept the facts... desperatly need a listening ear... or maybe just someone to cheer me up... that will be enough.... my zhong-ed eye had its tap on since yesterday... could someone turn it off??

2006-09-04T23:36:00.000+08:00

B i k i n iMy egg flips with kitty's egg flip
-Story of Koob and Twiz-

2006-09-04T01:47:00.000+08:00

many unforturnate things have been happening to me and my surrounding friends... there is more and more break-up between couples... wth... why can't guys cherish wat they have... at this point i suddenly thot of him... i know... i know i should not be feeling this way... but memories of him keeps flashing back.... i hate him i really do but why do i still have feelings for him... i hate you for making me for so deeply in love with u... i hate myself for not being able to carry-on....i so freaking useless... this song relates to him... when i 1st heard of this song his images our memories everything just came to mine mind.... i suddenly misses him... can ANYONE understand how i feel??? ever since MP is over we have not been contacting... i miss that person which is always on the other line singing songs and entertaining me.. without fail always cheering me... till one day u were sick and tired of it.... thats when everything starts to crash... i'm a failure.... or am i just being silly.... was together for full 7 months nearly 2 months after break-up and he's attach?!? it hurt me badly... and it make me reflex that all you said were nothing but LIES and more LIES.... why must you make such a nice fake image for me to hold on... why must you let me know ur true self... why... hate hate hate hate!!
我会好好过

你的爱很像泡沫
太轻或太重
都不在手中
我的爱就像天空
太放或太收
你都只是风
你来过却爱上自由
你出走我不问理由
等你再爱我
总有个角落
会让你想起我
向右或向左
都有我站在这里守候
你留下很多
够我面对寂寞
寂寞不重
重是爱太多
当你回头
看到的一定是我

2006-08-23T22:16:00.000+08:00

The latest copy of FHM

SCANDAL OF THE YEAR

Actually its....

whahaha lame theroy aye... i was actually the 3rd party =x hahaha lolx exam is around the corner and i'm still slacking...wth... all my friends already have finish their exam.. this is the 1st time TP's exam so late argh... why sia... hahaha after exam i have a long list of activities hohoho i simply can't wait... haha

Cutie boy and me??=x

shhh dun tell anyone hahaha lolx ain't he's a cutie lolx

2006-08-21T00:25:00.000+08:00

Your True Love Is a Cancer

Why you'll love a Cancer:
Cancer's loyal and sincere heart makes your own sensitive heart melt.Caring and devoted, a Cancer will take the lead in pursuing you - and not give up!
Why a Cancer will love you:
You're laid back enough to deal with Cancer's little mood swings and freak-outs.A fellow homebody, you know how make Cancer comfortable and at home with you.

2006-08-14T17:16:00.000+08:00

Dumb pple think that casketing = cascading how dumb can it de hohoho...

2006-08-14T02:22:00.000+08:00

Front view of my CMSK bourcher

Back View of my bourcher

Finally done with cmsik the kuku subject that waste so much of my time and its only 2 farking CU wth la.... i wanna slp slp slp le... nitey

2006-08-13T00:56:00.000+08:00

Abstract from arrmoo

I think I am going blind any moment.

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I mean, what the heck. What are you trying to prove to us, to yourself?
Seriously, you ought to get a brain check.
I think the sides of you are bursting from all that ego you have.
I wonder why you did not use that grey matter in you. Opps. My bad. Yours are too tiny to be seen and to be considered as a brain eh. Peabrain

You are roaming the town with your ego in tow. You want it all but too bad, you can't.
You acting all manly and macho? God. That is the worse part.
Stop playing around you asswipe. Go to a store and buy your own inflatable toy girl which you can have fun with 24/7.
Don't bother acting all cool with me, with us.
Don't think that all the girls will fall at your feet when you click your fingers.
Act like your age dude. Not your shoe size.
Ah beng wannabes are so passe. You claimed to have done that. Man, we are laughing our arses off everythime we talk about it. Get a parang why don't you? Show us what you are made of. Or are you nothing but just a pile of shit?
Yes. You are such a joke. You look like a roadkill.
I am not stupid, I've seen through your lousy acting skills. Don't talk your way around me because I ain't falling for it.

Disgusting piece of shit
You are the joke of the year. That one moment was hilarious.
I think you are the gay-est guy which I've ever seen. And to think you are not even one.

Sorry to burst your bubble
Mr 'I am the greatest and I can have whatever I want'
Just buzz off you prickhead

Get away from my girls. You all had done more damages than you thought.
Heartbreakers. Just fuck off

Act cute buay cute sibei ugly

-my personal addon-

i so totally agree with those highlighted wordings.. wth are u trying to prove Mr so-so u ain't got that thing which make gers worship you like god... so why don't you just buzz off and get a life of your own stop boasting llike as if u are the best "guy" that ever walk the earth... oh... i'm sorry i mean gay... hohoho... stop doing childish and immature things or actions just to gain attention ... are you that pathetic that you need the attention that badly... go get your 60 man to entertain you since you needed some kind of attention... stop walking around with ur unpoportional body size your head is simply too big to store ur egoistic "organ" and too big for a small body to balance as all the fats are ozing out of no where hoooooooo... wat a cute image aye... i shall show u my personal image of such a cute pathetic egoistic fool...

2006-07-28T00:11:00.000+08:00

sigh... i should not sense wat i'm sensing... dotx wth am i saying crap... i feel so distracted i lost interest in almost everything le... everything has become blend... monotone... my life is like a colour-less tv show... i'm trying very hard to show out my feelings... i'm trying very hard but how can i acheive an heartless state?? it seems so hard... my heart... hurts deep within... i know my weakness and i must prevent it from controling me... since that night... i believe u have already treat me just like a normal friend le... i dun understand why is it so easy for u to just let go?? 7 months together but... it seems that the relationship lasted only the 1st 3 1/2 months other den that holding on the r/s keep everything gg. somehow i thot u were so real to me but now it seems so distance... someone that i could only look and stare at his backview... i know how much my surrounding friends are helping me... and i really thank you gers... *hugs* but somehow i thot the r/s could be save!! but i was so wrong... holding on to u is not love... its forcing u!! and since u have change of heart i believe i was the one in the dark... its impossible that u miss me coz thats so fake... i guess ur heart have been stolen by another ger... hopefully u'll treat her well... not everyone is perfect dun expect too much... sigh... i miss u~ *cries*

song posted for you

最后我们分开了

虽然还是朋友

但做回朋友的情人

想摆脱关系不太容易

寂寞成了习惯

习惯靠着孤单

想念该遗忘

不该在身旁

陪着我的每个夜晚

我只想

对着夜空轻轻的呼吸

问自己最爱的人到底在哪里

在慌乱中

翻箱倒柜寻找记忆

有一种

爱它曾经住在我心里

陪伴我熬过多少个无声哭泣

不懂爱情

我的心如此无力

其实我很清醒

其实我很冷静

看着眼泪滴落在手心

2006-07-22T23:25:00.000+08:00

my new designs

down with cold... bad flu and bad cough... slight fever sigh... why am i always getting sick... the medicines are not working... sigh... feeling terrible... sobz

thot abt some stuff and yea... come to think of it i din lose anything... i just lost someone who does not cherish me for who i am but he lost someone who really care and who loves and appreciate him so deeply i guess he's at a bigger lost... a pot will always call the kettle black but in fact the pot nv knew that he is oso black!! i always believe whatever u do be it good or bad it will always reflect back to u... you gotta watch your KARMA... good things reflect goodness but if u have done things that hurt or harm someone indirectly better keep a look out when it hit back to u,it will hit u hard!! only fools believe u... and i just realise that people of the same kind flock together... rofl.... u have to learn to grow up... stop acting cute and think that you're the best in the world... coz you are not!! maybe u are still young no thinking still... always critise on other when u yourself is doing the same thing!!! fuck off la... get lost!!

2006-07-20T22:39:00.000+08:00

NDP pictures

C U T T E R F I S H C O M P E I T I O N S

This's year program

Isn't all the pic attractive haha.. but i find that this year NDP kinda bring back alot of memories during my nationals day the glory of running on the track the prize that i have won and not forgetting thoes st john pple messaging my leg after the race haha... i miss my active days... where i was really a hard core sports women! now... sigh i still wanna do sports but due to the fact that i wanna be fair i stop getting into the sun and tries to avoid it at all cost... i miss my canoeing days at sentosa... i wanna go canoe ANY TAKERS?

on tuesday on my home... sudden gastric pain... it was something i nv felt before sharp peircing pain that if i bend lower the pain is worst... but if i sit up straight the pain is not so bad just pulling pain... the pain lasted till today but it was on and off... pon morning lesson when to see doc at 9 plus... from my point of view i realise that whenever i'm under stress or at a lost (depression) this old aliment will occurs but it seems weird it has been appearing more and more offten that i cannot take it anymore... rem how much i used to hate seeing doctors?? sigh... doctor suspect 4 causes to my stomach...

1. Food alledgy
2. Emotions
3. Milk intorrent
4. virus attack or smth lolx forget le

but he feels that most prob milk is the main cause of my stomach bloated-ness coz i told me i love to drink milk... so what i can do now is watch wat i eat and try to avoid at all cost.

MP still hanging there no improvement made... things are getting worse... i seriously scare that we will not be able to have enough time to rush out the whole project... and i feel i'm a useless group leader i cannot lead the team well... i'm a leader that will only drag the whole team down... sigh i'm lousy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2006-07-16T21:10:00.000+08:00

why am i so affected by your everything... ur msn nick hurts me each time i see... i believe there is more den it meets the eye... ur heart has no longer belong to me... u have change.. and it time for me to let go... i'm trying very hard very hard not to be affected by your actions and everything but sad to say so i can't... it was my mistake to have made you my everything, it was my mistake and foolishy thinking that i thot you were the one for me. i was so wrong i should not have put in everything to this relationship... but i still love u... sigh

2006-07-03T01:25:00.000+08:00

once again i'm here to blog hohoho... yesterday was England last match in world cup... so sad they lost... sigh i held high hope for england and was sad that they lost sigh... nvm yea.. yesterday xinhui came over with her bro to watch football at my house haha lolx she keep screaming and scolding many explicit words haha i was so afraid my mama would hear it and tell her to mind her language haha... he is so crazy over beckam... whenever the screen shows beckam she would scream haha just imagine that funny scene haha lolx.... been rather stress up with FYP as i keep getting error which dun seems like an error to me la... wth... hopefully i'll be able to solve it asap wor... u know i have been thinking wat is the meaning of friends?? u know sometimes when they have no one there by their side den they will look for u if they have they dun even wanna find u or wat lor... its kinda saddening la but wat to do its life...sigh

2006-06-19T01:17:00.000+08:00

many things had happen within a week... happiness, laughter, smiles all have turn to sorrows, depression, tears.... just on monday we celebrated our 6th month anniversary it was a great day thou there was a lil'unhappiness...what would u or how would u react when u tried to hold on to his hand and all he do is either refuse to let u hold or just shake off ur hand... why did he do that i really wonder... but all i do is just keeping quiet... why because if i flare he would flare back... and being so "weak" i will lose even if i'm not at fault... i am a ger i need to be coax and need to be pampered.... but i ain't getting any of this from the day we are together till now! i'm always making the 1st move whether i'm right or wrong... its either u r just to egoistic or u simply can't be borthered?? when i confronted u abt the problem arising in our r/s u will only put the blame on me... telling me that when i tell pple abt us he will drift away from his gf...the more pple know the further we will drift a part.... wat is this.... if u truely love someone u will not let gap in-between the both of us. unless our love is nothing... or u had a motive for begin together?? i have no idea all this are just my point of view...

like wat pple always say "happiness are short lived" it so true soon after monday was mp meeting on wednesday... den friday sigh sucky... starting off mp with high sprits ended off with tears... he lied to me right before my eyes even thou i know the truth... why do u do such a thing?? u know how hurt was i to hear that from jas kee that u were actually with her.... and u din even mention anything abt it... why do u hide it from me...unless u have did something jian bu de ren?? hopefully no la... but why why did u lied to me once and again~ haiz... the thot of giving up is there but i ask myself time and again... "what is holding me back?" fear of losing u coz i can say i have feelings for u.... its been 2 days since u last called and sms... i not gonna give in this time i had enough le its time for u to make the 1st move NOT me....

I cannot think,
My heart is shattered.
If I’d live or die,
Would it even matter?
No one will catch me,
I’m falling fast.
I’m all alone,
In this tomb like cast.
You stole my heart,
Like it was nothing.
I want it back,
I would give anything.
Anything to forget,
Everything of your face.
Just grant my wish,
In this one special case.
You don’t know how,
Much pain I’m in.
The way your head is turned,
My tears are like rain.
My heart is caged in,
I can’t get out.
I keep wondering,
What are you all about.
When I first meet you,
My sorrows melted away.
I love you,
Was all you had to say.
But then I feared,
Your lies soon came.
It was over in a minuet,
Are you the one to blame?
There was no other one,
That could take your place.
I felt happy inside,
When I saw your face.
You can’t feel the pain,
I feel when I start crying.
You write of lost love,
When I’m the one dying.
You stole my heart,
Like it was nothing.
You whispered songs,
Of love in my ear.
You now act as if nothing happened,
And so I come to fear.
My eyes are darkening,
Soon you’ll see.
There is no hope,
No savior in me.
No more feeling,
I’m alone in here.
You can’t help me,
I’ve killed my own fear.
No blood shall,
Be ever spilled.
No that easily,
Would I be killed.
I’m giving up,
On loving you.
I’m moving on,
Get the clue.
One more page,
For the book of my soul.
In my heart this one poem,
Has left a massive hole.
You stole my heart,
Like it was nothing.
These games you play,
Are killing my heart.
You killed my soul,
You ripped it apart.
I’m giving up,
On loving you.
I’m moving on,
If it is possible for me to do so

2006-05-20T15:09:00.000+08:00

一个人的性格和个性都是天生的，落是要她改变，不是一朝一夕的事！

你对我的感觉越来越陌生。我之间隔了一道桥，一个不让对方走过的桥。

我的幸福的理由又是什么？

我也不知！

2006-05-19T00:04:00.000+08:00

i feel so cheated

2006-05-12T22:42:00.001+08:00

just got back not long... celebrate my uncle's 37 birthday... and ya enjoy today a bit... but not wat i expected it to be la...went mos last night with jas kee, xinhui, cheow and sok with some other of their friends la... was suppose to go double o as it was free entry for ladies.. but sadly when we reach there, the queue was damn freaking long and not to mention that the queue was being freeze as there were too many people in the club and the full house sign was out for both double o and o bar.... isn't that scary.. i guess coz today was a holiday thus everyone club last night. was at smoove damn the crowd is killer.. lets say if a bomb were to drop on mos i guess 1/4 of s'pore population will be gone... thats how pack it was...! talk abt space for dancing when there isn't any breathing space.. the area of dance space was like the surrounding of ur foot.This is the 1st time i go mos which is this pack la... oh ya glenn was there too haha he forever clubbing de lehz...haha jio me go rich man room but in the end can't go in too... sigh i wanted to go my fav PURE room but argh must be 23 and above den can enter... wat the hell... i miss the huge bean bag..

after mos went mac drink and rest leggy, den go back home... took NR6 home with xinhui on the bus chat alot on my past with jw and my present with ys... come to think of it i do miss thoes sweet memories... but i shall nv compare them... jw treats me the best and this kind of treatment i could nv ask for more... but ys... haiz... not say he treats me bad or wat but just that he dun really care if i'm happy or sad... or if i have any xin shi?? sigh.. sometimes i just think back why did i accept him in the 1st place?? like wat my kitty always say "路是你自己选的，没有人拿刀避你。" i have no one to blame but myself... i dun ask for my just a lil more care and concern will be enough... haiz...

reach home this morning at 430... went to bath and waited till it was 5 and gave him morning call for his gym. confirm our date and i went to slp. abt 3 hours later at 8 he called and ask me wake up he wan to meet at 10 as he was gg to ponggol there pray. know me la how piggy am i... i start whining and say very early den i tell me 12 meet la... and it went on and on till he say ok [unwilling]...back to slp...and my arlam din ring gosh when i woke up was already 1130 i saw his sms "are we still meeting" i quickly reply ya and went to bath... at 1150 he called... and say to meet at 1215 i was like stun la... told him to meet at 1 but he refuse to hang up till 1230 see wat i mean by ibf argh~ my intention for gg out today was to speak to him at the same time celebrate our 5th anniversary.

We went to the new cathay cineplex to watch M.I.3 woohoo its damn big and grand... good sound system had a lover's combo and the popcorn taste yummy hee... enjoyed myself *winks* after that i pass him the nike top that i got him... well it seems that he dun really like it... haiz..watever it is i still took the time to choose it for him... when i ask if he like it，he just answered woah it must have coz 50+ hmmm... but in fact it was not. sigh why do u have to judge a gift by the value and not how it is?? sigh... been having very bad head pain that affects the neck and my back brain killer pain and it happen today din tell him else he will start saying i'm a weakling and dunno how to take care of myself...bla bla...so i just kept quiet and walk with him lor...

baby even if i dun hold ur hand... you still won't hold mine... what has happen there is this gap between us... or are u too concern over ur muscle and look?? i really wanan know what is my standing in ur life... even vivian seems more impt den me... i really wanna know wat are you thinking all the time... and i so happen to come across this lil paragraph:

爱一个人，要了解也要开解；要道歉也
要道谢；要认错也要改错；要体贴也要体谅；
是接受而不是忍受；是宽容而不是纵容；是支
持而不是支配；是慰问而不是质问；是倾诉而
不是控诉；是难忘而不是遗忘；是彼此交流而
不是凡事交代；是为对方默默祈求而不向对方
诸多要求。可以浪漫，但不要浪费，不要随便
牵手，更不要随便放手

how come u nv see the good of me..
but instate u keep picking on my flaws...

sigh~

2006-05-12T21:55:00.000+08:00

你发觉了吗？爱的感觉总是在一开始时甜蜜，
总
觉得多了一个人陪，多了一个人帮你分担，你
终于不再孤单了，因为至少有一个人想着你、
恋着你，只要能在一起就是好的。

但是慢慢地，随着认识的加深，你开始发现了
对方的缺点，于是问题一个接一个出现，你开
始烦、累，甚至想要逃避，有人说爱情就像捡
石，总想捡到一个适合自己的，但是你又如何
知道什么时候能够捡到呢？她适合你，那你又
适合她吗？

其实，爱情应该像磨石子儿，或许刚捡到的时
候，你不是那么满意，但是请记住，人是有弹
性的，很多事情是可以改变的，只要你有心，
有勇气，与其到处去捡未知的石头，还不如将
自己已经拥有的石头磨亮磨光，你开始磨了
吗？很多人以为，是因为感情淡了，人才会变
得懒惰，其实人是先被惰性征服，感惰才慢慢
变淡的。

在某个聚餐的场合，有人提议多吃点虾对身体
好，这时候有个中年男人忽然说：“十年前，当
我老婆还是我女朋友的时候，她说要吃十只
虾，我就剥二十只给她。现在，如果她要我帮
她剥虾壳，简直就是开玩笑，我连帮她夹菜都
没
兴趣了，还剥虾壳呢。”

难怪越来越多的人只想谈一辈子恋爱，却迟迟
不
肯走入婚姻。因为，婚姻容易让人变得懒惰。

如果每个人都懒得讲话，懒得倾听，懒得制造
惊喜，懒得温柔体贴，那么夫妻之间，又怎么
会不渐行渐远渐无声呢？所以请记住，有活力
的
爱情是需要适度殷勤来灌溉的，谈恋爱，更是
不可以偷懒的。

有一对情侣，相约下班后去用餐，逛街，可是
女孩因为公司会议延误了，当她冒雨赶到时候
已经迟到了30多分钟，她男朋友很不高兴地
说：“你每次都这样，现在我什么心情也没了，
我以后再也不会等你了！”刹那间，女孩的心
决
堤崩溃了，她在想：或许，他们再也没有未来
了。

同样，在同一个地点，另一对情侣也面临同样
的处境，女孩赶到的时候也迟到了半个钟头，
她的男朋友说：“我想你一定忙坏了吧？”接着
他为女孩拭去脸上的雨水，并且脱去外套披在
女孩身上，此刻，女孩流泪却是温馨幸福
的。

你体会到了吗？其实爱恨往往只在我们的一念
之间！爱不仅要懂得宽容更要及时，很多事可
能只是在于你心境的转变罢了。如果有个人爱
上你，而你也觉得他不错，那并不代表你会选
择他。

我们总说：“我要找一个很爱很爱的人，才会谈
恋爱。”但是当对方问你，怎样才算是很爱很爱
的时候，你却无法回答他，因为你自己也不知
道。

没错，我们总是以为，我们会找到一个自己很
爱
很爱的人。可是后来，当我们猛然回首，才发
觉自己曾经多么天真。假如从来没有开始，你
怎么知道自己会不会很爱很爱那个人呢？其
实，很爱很爱的感觉，是要在一起经历了许多
事情之后才会发现的。每个人都希望找到自己
心目中百分之百的伴侣，但是你有没有想过，
在你身边早有人对你默默付出很久了，只是你
没有发觉而已。

所以，还是仔细看看身边的人吧，他或许已经
等你很久了。当你爱一个人的时候，爱到八分
绝对刚刚好。所有的期待和希望都只有七八
分，剩下两三分用来爱自己。如果你还继续爱
得更多，很可能给对方造成沉重的压力，让彼
此喘不过气来，完全丧失了爱情的乐趣。

所以请记住，喝酒不要超过六分醉，吃饭不要
超过七分饱，爱一个人不要超过八分。如果你
正在为爱迷惘，下面这段话或许可以给你一些
启示：爱一个人，要了解也要开解；要道歉也
要道谢；要认错也要改错；要体贴也要体谅；
是接受而不是忍受；是宽容而不是纵容；是支
持而不是支配；是慰问而不是质问；是倾诉而
不是控诉；是难忘而不是遗忘；是彼此交流而
不是凡事交代；是为对方默默祈求而不向对方
诸多要求。可以浪漫，但不要浪费，不要随便
牵手，更不要随便放手

2006-05-09T00:29:00.000+08:00

been a long time since i have last updated!! well life been rather smooth lately but as for my love life i'm starting to have many uncertaincy arising. Is it because lately the both of us have been busy with projects and stuff...? or have ur feelings fade?? i dun really wanna find out. There is this stone in my heart that i wish i knew wat it was all about. But, maybe ah ma was right about speaking out my feelings to him... if i do so i have a very strong feeling we will end up arguing and maybe it might just end... maybe thats the reason why i dun wish to bring the matter up ba. he is my boyfriend but in wat way does he portray as one?? i was sick the whole of last week all u said was to ask me to take care of myself... why din u ask if i need you to accompany me home... aren't u worried that anything might just happen to me on the way home??? i know i dunno how to take good care of myself... but would you take care of me is another part of the story. he said " if you yourself dun take take of yourself well why do you expect people to take good care of you" sigh~

I miss the closeness

i want a boyfriend that would be able to Pour me with tender loving care that's all i ask for is it too much?? you want me to change... i'm trying very hard but did you even notice.. all you know was to be unhappy with my dressing the shoe i wear my attitude everything dun seems to match ur liking. I endure but i'm a ger i have feelings too... its been a long time since we had a sweet moment together... when was the last time u said i love you? when was the last time u sent me home? sigh~

i have a boyfriend but his girlfriend is always guessing his thots coz he doesn't speak up... why... all that you care was you and yourself how abt me??? was is my place in your heart?? sigh

2006-01-11T01:41:00.000+08:00

hmmm...its so pissing i can't seem to get my visual studio to connect to my local host so that i can do my wbat assignments!!! argh sadded... well anyway... things been rather smooth these few days... growing more and more attach to him -smiles- its a good news ba... wat ah ma said is right nv should i compare coz it would be unfair to him... but still i will have to learn just how to adapt to my bf! maybe i'm just too used to having jw's way of care adn concern that in a way i refuse to feel his care!! but in fact he does care but not as much as wat jw had given me la... but watever it is...it have become the past!!! my ibf is my present whahahah dumb lor.... rofl... that dumb ibf of mine make me so peiseh today!!! he insist that i must sing for him to hear else he will not put down the phone... dumb right whahaha... hee tml will be our special day woohoo time pass real fast it seems that it was yesterday that we had started... hee... made him a cute thingy and got him a ducky oops... hahah so kiddo ar..! but dun care haha coz i gg to insist that he say that its the best gift he had got!!! haha...

yesterday while i was in wbat lab i see smth i should not have seen whahhaa... my so called "conflict person" if thats wat i think its called... she cried... and when i see that i feel like comforting her but yea things are not the same as it used to be and ya i have no reason why i feel that way too... it seems that she had become very alone!! no longer in big big clique... haiz watever it is it's none of my problem.. why should i care so much or maybe i thinking of how he's coping ba... screwed up la.... dotx...

damn...i have restarted my lappy a million times but still unable to get the IIS thingy to work with my Visual Studio... so dumb and irritating... i really wish that it will work den i wun ahve to go sch and do it... sigh... any kind soul willing to help me out...

woohoo tml morning gg breakfast with my ibf...haha so gotta wake up early as i'm meeting him at 745 woooo there goes my slp...

nitezzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

2006-01-03T15:27:00.000+08:00

*cries* i'm disappointed by ur actions... wth lor... is this how u treat me de... i'm speechless... all i can say is that i have a bf that dun seems to care! sobz...

2006-01-03T00:05:00.000+08:00

u dun seem to be bothered abt me...why should i be the one bothering abt this...! many things u say or do does not prove anything!! its nothing... i am begining to feel that i'm not the only one!! i dun trust ur actions... i believes there are den it meets the eye...! things are not as simple as it seems to be yea...

i'm not at the least important to u yea... but watever it is...since u dun give a damn now!! i shall not be bothered abt anything le till u know wat u really wan..thou i din say it to u face 2 face by yea... u actions proves everything...

u wan low-profile fine! i let u be!! since u wan it this way i have no say! u better not let me know that my guess is right... i will be like so damn ******* argh~~~

thou spend the start of the year with u... but i din feel anything special! sigh but the view of fireworks was cool... i did enjoy it but u were so tired i oso sian half le lor... tml start of new term and 1st day of the year... -_-"

2005-12-31T00:43:00.000+08:00

MEN ARE SO INSENSITIVE...!!!!

wat's with all the guys today sigh... i begining not to understand u... your inside world ur thinking and ur feelings... i just dunno anything!! sometimes its better to say watever u feel out den just shoo me off and say that there is nothing!! sigh i'm ur gf la but its seems that u dun share ur feelings out la or do u reckon that i'm gf... i'm always guessing lor sigh... i only can assume!! wth lor~ sometimes i wonder la "are u my boyfriend? / am i ur gf?" although we both know it la... but does it seems as it is... i dunno lor... wo de an quan gan zai na li!! i dun feel any secure lor... maybe u are not as sensitive as i am ba... but sorry to say so la i love to have the attention of my bf la.. and maybe i'm not geeting enough of it lor... i know u dun like me to club and i know u are scare whenever i go clubbing... but this is wat i enjoy doing with my friends!! and i know my limit... and stop thinking as if i'm a lose ger la.. i'm telling u that i'm NOT la!! i know u r worried but... isn't it the same as i feel whenever u go meet ur brothers and stuff... u should know wat i mean when i say that la... and u know i dun like de lor...

whenever u say u miss me!! do u mena it or u just say it coz u wanna say! from my p.o.v la...when a person misses a person he/she will find all ways and excuses juat to see that person... but u r diff u just say u miss and ya thats it... its like meaningless... but when i do say i miss u i really wan u to be by my side that very moment! haiz.. watever la...

do u care about me!! i really wanna know la! i can dun look for u the whole day and u can simply dun look for me too la... wake up wun msg me to say u wake up le... slp oso wun say! say call back...sometimes u do but most of the time u dun lor... haiz... maybe i'm hard to please or maybe my expectation is simply to high... take for eg just now i msg u at abt 1030 plus and there is no reply at all lor i have to call u den i know wat u doing la... u know how i feel ma... u dunno lor... all u care is about urself la... u say u are tired la...den i dun disturb u but when i called u you are playing la wth lor... i have bf like no bf like that la.. damn sad whole day lor... afternoon say go see doc... u oso can't be botherd to ask wat the doc say la...where is the concern that i should have!! like i told u before i nv felt ur care and concern when u were after me..and u said that u will only give all ur care and concern to ur gf...now gf le but still where it is... i totall have no say le lor... or maybe i just dun wanna say much le la... just wondering if this r/s will last not lor... damn sad lor~

i dunno wat to say to u le... wat's wrong when pple knows that we are together ur gf so jian bu de ren mehz... if so den wats the point lor... ya maybe i'm so jian bu de ren ba!!! or maybe u just dun treasure wat u have when u yong you it lor...

u once told me that ur expectation for ur gf is a xian su de ger and ask too be one... sorry la i'm not that xian xu ger u wan lor... haiz... fuck la why am i feeling so down argh hate teh feeling la... sobz i need a hug i need a shoulder i wan a listening ear... *cries*

2005-12-10T23:37:00.000+08:00

yesterday was the BEST night out at black i mean the best of the best coz i saw my handsome kinda flirted but watever he's just simply so cute arghhhh... hahaha got myself drunk so throw face sia ahha drank alot i think starting just drank a small cup of vodka lime den after that came the jars and den 6 tequilla pop [pardon my spelling] *burp* after that the whole dance floor was spinning~ dance awhile and after that went to toilet and that was the 1st encounter wib him haha so peiseh-ing coz firstly i was drunk and could not recognize him when he brush my chin and called me ahha and i got the cheek to ask who is he [omg so throw face] den immediately i sms-ed my kitty to inform her and ya if not wrong oso send dunno who else sms and watever i sent or watever the content is i seriously dun rem any!! gosh i hope i din send out any offending sms!! And watever that seriously happen while i was drunk i dun rem all i knew was that my friends keep asking if i'm ok!! its so dumb lor~ yeap went dance floor dance a while and den back to da toilet to puke!! OMG =stinks= haha 1st time drunk wtf...after puking was feeling not that drunk but still drunk? ahha dunno la all i knew was that the music last night was GOOD!! kept me dancing all night long! and ya the second encounter with him was on the stairs [forever de lor] so close held waist and chat a while~ *yippy smiles* haha so damn happy lor arghhhh but in another way i'm feeling guilty of my actions would be unfair to "him" but watever it is i din do anything wrong can le whahaha~ went back home at 6 this morning sms him to let him know that i've just reach home and told him to give me wake up call at 830!! slp a while den off to sch to do assignmnets!! came back at erms...2 plus still till nearly 9 plus 10 den wake up! woohoo if only every fri i go black den can see him more whahhaha -shy- ahha =)

2005-12-02T22:57:00.000+08:00

wah fucking angry today sia... wat the hell she wans if wanna bitch around or watever say infront la dun behind say say... hum say la~ dun act till so big lor i know u head big so big fuck la... know ur limit hor... now i endure only when i really cannot endure ar i cannot assure that nth will happen so better shut ur mouth~

2005-10-27T15:02:00.000+08:00

wootx...haha so cold last night the temp went down to 13 degrees weeeeee...freezing~ haha down with cold been staying home the whole of today...doing nothing except watching some clips from my lil lappy wor~ well not that bad after all heard that the weather will go up to 30 after this weekend...so not that bad~ been slpin extreamly early like 8 plus local time haha abt 930 10 over here haha and been like pig too slp till 11 plus hahahah k la cousin wanna use le update again cheers~

2005-10-25T13:55:00.000+08:00

been a while since ive been away gotta know some eye opening news so yea just wanna CONGRAT them yea...wooooohoooo freezing cold out here so cold brrrrr....thou its like only spring but yea 1st day landed was like 17 degrees gosh so gonna freeze to death haha well no worries i just gotta stay at home and enjoy the warmness and stay behind the door. been eating m,y daily 3 meals plus in-between of fruits imagine the amount that ive put on -gosh- well thats a lil secret yea i'm not gonna say it out ahhahah bleahz... i'm like using the internet from the library next ta study center yea...haha gotta go back there already will updatre soon~ cheers =)

2005-10-04T01:37:00.000+08:00

for the past few days i'm thinking~ i and whenever i think...my mind is filled of u why does images of u appears~ why can't i seem to forget you -sigh- everytime i think of u must tear will just fall off i miss u i really do miss u terribly i can't stop thinking of u why...

2005-08-22T21:42:00.000+08:00

Everyone can see
There's a change in me
The all say I'm not the same
person I used to be

Don't go out and play
I'll just dream all day
They don't know what's wrong with me
And I'm too shy to say

It's my first love
What I'm dreaming of
When I go to bed
When I lay my head upon my pillow
Don't know what to do

2005-08-21T23:14:00.000+08:00

ur the first the very first that i love so dearly...but i'm unable to capture his heart...i thot i had already capture it but eventually he still choose her in the end...the hurt u have coz is there but the love i have for u overcomes the hurt why i oso dunno...u wan me to say everything out to u? why do u wanna hear it why do u wanna see me cry infront of you? why...u know that its very hard for me to say everything out to people esp U...i really wanna tell u how i feel i really wanna let u know how much u meant to me i really do... but whenever i face u the words just simply refuse to come out...all these maybe u will nv get to know...

i'm a strong ger on the outside but very weak on the inside...i have lost myself... lost entirely...change person...evil heart...hate...fake...u name it i have it
-sigh- i feel like screaming...i feel like crying....i feel like throwing temper but all this are done in the heart sliently only i can hear it no one else...i have drop my tears again...suddenly i'm thinking again...all the things that happen everything has change me...to be a better on or WORST? argh i dunno wat i'm saying... my heart as messy as this...argh fuck up life screwed up life i hate myself i hate love i hate studies i hate loneliness i hate it....

i feel like leaving here to a far far far away place nv return...and even in a far far far away place hurt may still be there...quit school...debarred...expel...get killed...run away...den u will not feel bad for hurting me anymore...haiz argh argh wat the fuck am i saying FUCK UP LIFE!!!!!!!!!

MEANING-LESS

DEATH?

LIFE?

SAD!

2005-08-11T17:53:00.000+08:00

i have seen it and heard things i think i should not be hearing but these parts and pieces match out to a full picture that i conclude in my heart...i thot happiness was with me but i was entirely wrong...happiness was nv with me but sorrows...ur form of happiness is only with her? ha my guess only ba...In the end ur decision is still HER? should be ba...my instinct is NEVER wrong...from the way u treated me haiz...know how much hurt i have...although the feelings is still there but everyone has been telling me things that i dun wanna hear i only wanna believe and hear wat u say but in the end the outcome is still this way!!! i miss u i truly do...eveytime i see u with her i simply lost mood plus quiet-ness...filled will thots...many many!! i'm a simple ger too simple that i'm un-conparable to a pretty one....
TRUTH: dislike

2005-07-25T14:33:00.000+08:00

my dream is to be with u....if its possible i would rather stay in my dreams and nv would wanna wake up again...i dun wanna open my eyes and see that u are not here with me anymore...i'm not use seeing no messages from u...i'm not use to have no phone calls..wo yi jing xi guan ni ask me to pom, ask me to eat, pei me when i'm bored, look after me like a lil kid, hong me, ask me eat medicine when i'm sick, i miss the hugs the kisses the sweet words and thotful acts from u...i feel so empty without u... and i know this time it happens for real...i will nv get to be in ur arms again...nv gonna see u sleep before my eyes...everything all my happiness have change drasticly within a week...why?can u mend back this broken heart of mine...will u be there when i needed ur shoulder the most...you said i was ur missing pieces of a puzzle and i guess ur puzzle has just been trash in the rubbish bin coz its no longer a puzzle that u wanna hold on to....MOODLESS for anything sobz...cry...poor nui nui have been drown with tears....COL

2005-07-25T11:52:00.000+08:00

once again...i'm hurt by u! you brought me up to the sky flying and now u throw me in the sea drowning...why give me promises when u know u are going to break it...when u know u can't achieve it? WHY

can u feel how much u have meant to me? sigh~ i guess i was such a fool all along~

2005-07-16T00:30:00.000+08:00

been a long time since i last updated my bloggy haha...oh well just finish the term test guess kinda screwed up yea...just pray hard that i'll pass everything ba...been rather happy and cheerful lately coz i know he has started to give me 100% of his attention le wor...i look forward to each coming day...sometimes i would just wonder to myself "will he be waiting for me?" "wat is he doing now?" "he got eat ma?" bla bla haha the list will go on and on hee...dang xin ta bu chi dan xin ta hui ji mo dang xin ta de yi qie...haha... i rubbish ba...

i'm falling deeper and deeper in love wib him...the fear of losing him is there the deeper the feeling the deeper the hurts is...i dunno what he really feels for me thou the feelings is there but ya...i dun wanna lose i dun wan...but i really very scare till i've teary eye each time i thot of it...how can i get rid of such feelings it sucks i dun like to feel this way i'm very very miserable I HATE IT!! i know its hard decision as i know he dun wanna hurt anyone but ya eventually someone will get hurt de...

i once ask "ai wo de ren hai shi wo ai de ren?"

that was when i was with ys...i felt comfort but i just dun have the sparks with him he treat me very well wait for me after sch send me home call me everyday and gives me wake up call to check if i have really woke up but he was just too over-protective not caring enough too talkative(irritating) too strong which is very scary...sigh...he was ai wo de ren

na wo ai de ren ne?

ka shi wo hai yi wei shi wo zhi zhuo duo qing...shi wo cai shan le ni men shi yin wei you le wo de chun zai ni dui ta cai you ta bian hua ma?zhi dao ys de chu xian ni cai fa jue qi si ni shi xi huan wo de...na ru guo ta bu chu xian ni jiu yu dong wu zhong ma? wo bu ming bai wei shen me ren zong yao deng dao shi qu cai dong de yao zhen xi ma? dan yong you le que mei hao hao dui dai...wei shen me??????? ai wo que zi neng zuo peng you ma hai shi...hai~ ni dui wo de hao wo chi dao ye heng xi xuan ni teng wo shi fei chang de teng ai...xi huan na me jian jian dan dan de ai qi... ke shi zai chi ta de chu xian ran wo gan dao fei chang fei chang pa...bu chi sou cou de wo zhen de hao pa na chi fa shen de shi...ze ji tain wo xiang le hao duo hao duo wo jue de ru guo shi wo de yi ding shi wo de zhen yang zhen qu ye ke neng zhen qu bu dao...mian qiang mei you xin fu wo ming bai...shun qi zi ran ba zi yao ta kuai le wo ye hui kuai le de...3 ge ren yi ge bei shang hai hao guo 3 ge duo bei shang hai...

i choose wo ai de ren...am i wrong? have i make the wrong decision...
haiz

2005-05-26T00:00:00.000+08:00

oh well sorry for not been updating on my blend-est life...its a new year a new semster everything new friends and class all new...argh...i have only precelia in my class well yea have or dun have is like the same still so alone de...haiz sad sad...*cry* since the last week of holiday i have been thinking...and ya really think lots lots thoes kind...the journey on life is nv smooth dun expect everything to go ur way!!!!!!

with tears
ally

2005-04-12T03:21:00.000+08:00

wah~ went for my DCNK make up lesson today hmmm failed this damn subject hai me gotta se ethat teacher again...sigh well today after lesson went da watch a movie with belley darling~ -the eye 10- whahhaha at 1st ahe was laughing all the way well some parts are damn funny other parts are scary *hide in corner* ally is scare haha that why can't sleep... belley laugh laugh till hide behind my sweater hood lolx me worst cover eye eye till only a lil gap to see lolx hahaha long time no trill le ever since she and me hai~

was suppose to drag hummy to watch movie together de but he refuse hahah...hack la anyway yea it happen again~ ate lunch at foodcourt den ya suddenly can't finish den as ya went toilet after that~

in toilet:
belle came out 1st den
belle :"ally u done"
ally :"yea...(faint sounding) almost done"
belle :"why ur eyes red red de so small" "u cried"
ally :"nah vommited again~"
belle :"huh?"

haha end of story~

yea~ she told me better not make that a habit den i was like ya i know~ but i tell her its a good way to lose weight...hahah i will make sure i lose lots of weight

ideal TARGET 45kg

gotta lose about 10

FAT FAT FAT FAT FAT ALLY IS SO DAMN FAT

2005-04-11T01:00:00.000+08:00

sigh~ 6 months.....6 months has pass many things happen and i have change a lot to someone i hardly understand and reconise anymore~...haiz its that long~~~ too painful too stressful too much too handle....sigh~ i still rem 6 months before it.... all the happy moments i had with u...now i see that u have found the one to lean on le i'm very happy for u yeah~ begining i wasn't too sure if i could accept it but now we are...ya...happy for each other ba ger ger I MISS YOU...sigh~ been eating and vommiting sigh dun understand why...anything in = everything out THIS IS BAD if i carry on... WHAT'S WRONG WITH ME tears fall heart broken yet i'm still standing strong outside...but am i really that strong~ am i really a strong ger~

nah~ i dun think i am as strong as i seems to be...haiz failed one of my moudles yea~ its expected coz i dun undertsand wat the SHIT the teacher is teaching except some due to all the "friendship" thingy that has affect me lots yea~

i'm a STRONG kiddo rem!!!

yea maybe ya right i'm blinded by my feelings...yes indeed i'm very fond of you and i know there is no possibility between us but still i wanna share happiness and sorrow with u thats all i dun ask for nothing more~ thanx for all the memories u had gave me yea~ i'll treasure it be it happy or sad...

i have a dream and that dream is to be with u ----> this is just a foolish thinking of mine~

YOU WON'T UNDERSTAND DE~~~

signing off
ally

2005-04-07T02:13:00.000+08:00

sigh

why whenever i show concern to u...u'll have to just reject it haiz why why...

2005-04-05T00:11:00.000+08:00

sigh~ been a long time since i have blog haiz well feeling rather down but i dunno wats the cause of it yea kinda sad maybe i think too much le haiyo woke up with a nice sweet dream but yea already said its a dream in reality it can NEVER happen really wish that i won't feel this way its very terrible...how i wish that i can fall asleep and never wake so i will always be happy...sigh i miss u and its true i know i shouldn't be feeling this but why...i dunno...its just an feeling or is it real sigh...wats my identity now? i dunno? so many knots in my heart who will be there to un-tie it...i miss thoes days...its worst now that is holidays now so many free farking time tooo free till think too much thou i've been rather happy that pi feng and me are ok le but i just feel that something is missing something that me myself dunno wat is it wor...haiz i feel like crying but why aren't thoes tears coming out...W H Y ? maybe i'm too bother by every movement of urs le sigh~ kinda sick now le yesterday slight fever and ya dun care la anyway its not the usual way i would spend my holidays de...THIS IS SO UNLIKE ME!!!! no matter wat i do i'm nv gonna surpass her de....haiz...watever it is its ur decision u happy can le...am i gg back to the path that i was once in?? sigh

I WAN TO BE ON DIET

2005-02-24T00:56:00.000+08:00

Its how funny some stuff seems to be...once a ever-so-close buddies will ended up in a state of nearly strangers?!?!?!?! Gosh~ wat has the world turn into... i'm sorry if u were to read this but i seriously have to say my piece of mine mind!!!!

haix been rather sad year month week and day lor...every thing is not gg smoothly as i expected it to be.all matters begin with me 1st was the choice between a person and a group...2nd my sensitivity....argh~ haix maybe this is a hint that...this is not the path that i should continue gg on...i think that i should return back to the state that i was last sem maybe that is where i can find happiness and where my sorrows depletes...tml gg to meet a ger hmmm...gg to watch movie and stuff wor...haha finally can relax...long time nia see movie le wor~ haix me very down very moody very sad why of all things must this happens on me!!! this prove that our friendship is ain't strong enough to withstand such tragic....haiz

2005-02-05T20:32:00.000+08:00

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hmmm very very meaningful really feel wat it says haiz...been rather depress sad trouble...ai shen tan qi that all i can do...who can really know how i really feel... so what if i'm sensitive...if u dun do things which made it so obvious i would not have sense that something is not right...sometimes u all are really too much le lor and i simply ask nicely "whats wrong" and all u can say is "aiya u too sensitive le la" i know u all know that i'm sensitive but ya dun always use that and ya wo...hai...ji shi cai neng hui dao yi qian de you qing ne?

2005-01-29T22:05:00.000+08:00

A sMiLe HiDeS A|L exPreSsIon Be iT hAppY or SaD...
sorrows are the only one that is unable to be hidden esp when the tears start rolling down....sometimes its beyond one's control...

if u want me to be happy its definatly possible...just that the hurt within will gradually build up de...thats wat i always do...i may seem happy but deep down within me u will nv be able to see my inner world...

wat can u do or wat should u do when u have fallen with a person which assume that he is a bad guy (!-_-") and encourage u to forget and give up on the idea... ming ming jiu shi you gan qing wei he yao bi kai ne? bu zhi bu jui yi si ge yue le...yi tian bi yi tian de sheng wei he wo hui ze yang wo ye bu zhi dao....wei he xin huang ni wo ye bu chi dao xi huang jui shi xin huang mei you te bie de li you...sometimes i just dun get it why? haiz...when there is a will there is always a way...

well went to Wild Wild Wet today for our project stuff haha play the whole day till haiz me sick i think totally change of voice...sigh...oh ya me chao ta too haiz dunno when den can white back again haha...well many things happen for a reason as things dun just happen coz it wans to happen yea...been a rather short holiday but yea have nice, sweet, beautiful, sad memories and ya all the objection from 2 buddies haiz dun get it dun understand and haiz dun wanna know wats wrong with myself too...haiz tml i still gotta attend church and gotta go kia kia with my aunts and mama to get cny clothes haiz gg to zzz le tml den i continue please stay tune hahah kk nitey pals muAcKz....=p

2005-01-23T02:30:00.000+08:00

yeah finally the terms test are gone...hahah yippie...but ya i should not be happy so soon i still have my ACCOUNTS paper wor...sigh...hmmmm lots of stuff happen and yea mich told me some stuff and ya told me that i should not be so sensitive and should learn how to hack care and ya being sensitive has its good and bad point...maybe due to my sensitivity thats why i tends to think alots sigh... some things i just can't seem to say let go = let go de...i will just tell u ya i forget abt it le i nv think abt it le haha all this are just said to fu yan u all de if not haiz keep on nag aiyo ally just simply hates nagging...lolx hmmmm this whole week i can say that i'm not really being myself coz i've been rather emotional maybe i really think tooo much le ba...aiya dunno why i say that too but yea...its funny how stuff can be...when u begin to have determination on something and decided to move on there will always be some stuff holding u back and ya preventing u from gg on...that does not apply to me yea coz i'm like always on the same spot nv moving...haha WHY i simply dunno...maybe...its due to me unable to open up to pple abt feelings or something like that...partly i prefer keeping to myself and ya act happy when i not haha dunno la that wat i feel i am ba...maybe its coz i'm unable to tell how hurt am i ba that y i turn to mine alcohol...drown all sorrows and unhappiness...hmmm thurs pi ask me why i keep looking into the sky and ya guess wat me ans back..."haiz u really dun understand me well still say we are buddies" dunno why say such hurtful words too haha den ya mich told her its coz when i fan or thinking something that is the only place i find comfort in...haha hmmmm next time when ally is down the only place to look for me will be a place where the sky is visible else it will be my house multi-storey car park....haha well no one will oso find me de la...haha aiya me dunno wats wrong le talking rubbish and crapping..........mad......
haix...
paranoid ally hmmmm....
nitey...

2005-01-15T01:26:00.000+08:00

been feeling quite rubbishy lately...this whole week sucks...
stressed out from the "not so near yet not so far" exams and projects haiz. thanks to my frens ahahah who kept reminding me that exams is just round the corner, like i don't know that already...but yea she is damn lucky in a way coz she dun have to take the term test...haix

looking at the heap of notes piling up on my table really didn't help one bit...

and this whole week i've got stomach ache...like on and off...just refused to go away...darn...

oh ya been rather AP recently how no reason and ya hot tempered gosh wat is wrong with me argh~ guess there is only one main factor that is affecting me this much ba...been fagging and i know its not right but ya i'm too vexed and i simply can find another way to dis-stress sigh. my frens are begining to dislike this particular person and ya coz its due to ME and it seriously affect the 3 of us badly and ya i manage to conclude that this person has a damn serious conflict with my group due to his every body language and ya i proud to say that me too is begining to DISLIKE or shall i say HATE coz we feel that he is a very XNR lor...wth well maybe my this blog will continue to rot till all the exam are over and done with it yea....hmmmm very very extreme tiredness due to an hour slp on the previous night...
nitey peeps take care ya
*muackies*

2005-01-01T18:16:00.000+08:00

HAPPY NEW NEW TO ALL AND EVERYONE wor~
hmmmm my new year resolution....wat is it huh... haiz dunno lehz i seem to be so suay so ya dun think that anything i wan or dare to wish for anything le sigh...just hope to pass my studies can le...and dun wanna think too much haha gonna change myself to learn how to hack haha yea...hmmm use heavy work load to bury myself hmmm....haiz....

2004-12-25T03:35:00.000+08:00

hey hey everybody MERRY CHRISTMAS wor~ haha well been a really busy week thinking wat present to get for each and everyone haha sigh...and the last few day cutting and wrapping haha lolx....yesterday went out with cousin to orchard to get present fopr mich pi and feng aiyo can say that day i overall spend abt 100 plus bucks wor... bought stuff from lost and found den went to bloomington to get stuff haha it's damn pack lor...coz normally if u walk from heeren to far east only will take abt 15 mins but guess wat yesterday we took nearly 45 min just to squeeze thru the crowd wor...oh ya finally i got my ear pierce lolx haha no one stop me this time hahah been wanting to pierce there for a very LONG time le but always kena ban from doing so...lolx...ya did i mention that i got a moo moo cow soft toy haha and it's sitting next to my bed lolx...hahah moo moo cow...hee =) den after all the shopping send my cousin home 1st den i head home haha reach home argh damn shag and tired but ya bo bian gotta wrap all the gift haha special wrappers wor...no where got sell de...and ya did the tube haha guess that was my best master piece wor coz of the trail of stars at the bad that is able to glow in the dark haha yeah den ya did all of it till 4 plus i think coz haha (wanna imagine the situation?) was cutting the name of my classmate den was lying on the floor with a pillow and haha suddenly just doze off...haha den i wake up continue to cut till i buai ta han le den drag myself to bed but haha still cutting it haha weird huh...den ya pon both my lec...sigh now i like blur student hahah...esp CMATHS argh like wth dunno wat is mich writing sobz sobz sobz.... dun understand HELP!! haiz oh ya guess wat i went to sch just to give present but not to attend lesson haha cooL huh! -_-" dotx haha den was like wondering how pass and stuff haha den it was present giving hee and there was an weird situation lolx dun wanna mention la...haha peiseh wor haha dotx...yup head down to town after all the went to far east to eat the chicken rice hee yummy haha i ate 2 plate of rice and ya can u believe it haha i dun eat much usually haha after that walk around level one haha went to L&F den got ourself another top wor...*wanted* haha lolx den went to heeren to look see look see den yup was lil`tirsty so we head all the way up to graffi to slack whahahah hee sat at the same table as i sat with carol on thurs haha with all the wordings that i've wrote haha yup some part is known as danger zone haha but ya hack la...me mich pi and feng wrotethe entire table haha i can say that that table can be belong to us le...lots of rubbish from mich and ally hahah hope no one sees it wor...peiseh de wor...haha coz the table is right in the front gosh~ haha i was suppose to go bishan with mich the driving range there den pub... but ya love that place very peaceful de not like a pub at all haha... but ya i din go coz was very very tired wor...no strength haha seriously LACK of slp whahahaha...must slp early tml haha ...so ya now at home like rotting ahha but yea overall its an very joyous day yea....
miss ya peeps,
ally^07

2004-12-21T01:19:00.000+08:00

sigh sigh sigh suddenly kena fever during lecture haiz den my mood was like totally SUCKS haha but ya watever pi and mich say i was like ah ,ya, and uh huh, can't be bother to say much coz no strenght ba...and ya in between lec i was like slpin lor and they very rubbish wrote 2 lettle on my paper and say i not only know how to slp talk but oso slp write -_- dotx they are simply rubbish whahahaha...after lec gotta go tamp get present for my darling's birthday hee...coz later tonight celebrating it with my grandfather hee...cooL huh hee well before getting the present, me and pi was at the billabong section den i saw this skirt and thot of getting it for my cousin coz her size and my size is the same so pi suggest that i put it on den i was like HUH??? wear skirt haha weird huh...so ya when into the changing room to try it on haha well it fixs me well lolx den pi say she wanna see den ya kena trick coz she took down my pic doink~ haha nvm as long as it does not get onto the hands of other classmate and stuff can le so shy can aiyo...hahaha den she was like suggesting that chirstmas eve when we go out together wear skirt...den i was like huh serious ar...can count me out ma? lolx haha as usual the answer is NO haha but ya i told her chinese new year i sure wear de ma so wan to see me wear skirt only that day ba lolx...hahaha...after all the walking around finally decided to get carol a top haha well i hope she will like it wor coz her wei da de cousin fever still can shop for her b'dae gift lor...hee nah i'm kidding wor~ den send pi to sch den went back home. reach home only slp coz very very xin ku so bo bian slp lor...somemore sleep till nearly 8 i guess but lucky after that feel so much better,ate dinner den desert oh CHOCOLATE ice cream hee..YUMMY *winks* well been rather vexed for some reason coz i simply GIVE UP totally dun understand the care and concern for...?sigh maybe wat mich say is right haiz...hate myself sia...why must be like that aiyo...dun care me la i think i'm gg bonkers le...

2004-12-19T23:58:00.000+08:00

haiz happen to read on some stuff yea...and thots filled my mind and suddenly i rem wat mich and pi told me and ya they were right all the while abt that person(*) but just that i was damn toopid to not have realise it...sigh...i'm wondering why it affects me so much...gosh~ * is like a materialistic person when i come to think of certain stuff haiz...but lucky i have walk out of it le hack la...anyway its no longer my problem coz i simply hate *....argh...feeling rather fustrated, pissed and pekcek sia...maybe coz there are too many uncertainty within me...not for this but rather another thing haha sound contradicting yea...haha dunno la..already tried my best not to think not to guess. But each time i take a step back, it always happen that the step i took was redundant as i will always be at the same position time and time again sigh...that why pi "say its impossible for u to mean wat u say de...haha" maybe its due to my nature ba...sigh feel terrible i guess (!-_-")*shrugs was bored damn bored at home coz i'm alone haha did some cmaths but halfway was like argh dunno how to do coz its Amaths haha which i din learn before...haiz...hope that i will be able to cope lor coz pi say she dunno how to teach de...dotx...did my accounts tutorial too..haha guai hor...hee =) whole day only ate curry puff before dinner haha den just now 7 plus went to green for dinner haha but weird thing is that i dun seem to feel hungry at all...funny ar...lolx haha just now was like watching zhong yi da ge da so funny can haha coz there is this dunno wat band la they form a bai chi zhao ju haha cute lor...haha my msn nick oso hear from there de cute ar haha lolx hmmmm tml gotta reach sch at 8 coz i promise to pei pi for her prsp lesson coz she alone no one pei her ma so i be a kind person pei her lor...pi see i so good lolx...haha oh ya gotta rem to buy gift for my cousin carRoL coz tuesday is her birthday haha but yea she is celebrating it with my grandfather wor somemore at resturant haha sigh i'm like wondering how am i gg to rush to the resturant when i end at 6 gosh and dinner starts at 7 haha guess 240 is the only way ba...still wondering wat should i get for her aiyo...coz i not very sure wat she like or needs maybe i shall get a moo moo cow for her haha coz i like it but ya if i buy for myself mama sure scold me de...so i decided to get for her wahahahah but scare wait i buy le dun wannna give her how hahaha lolx oh ya oso need to but 2 more gift for pi and mich for their chirstmas gift...dunno if wanna include xf not...but come to think of it if u dun include her and she happen to find out and stuff how would u feel if ya were to be in her shoes... haiz...*ponders* dunno la...if u were to ask me i think i will get for her coz u know me la...soft hearted as usual haiz....fan si le la...guess i shall go and bath le haha very late le...and my lappy is gg to flat le later i bath finish de i charge haha bye....

2004-12-18T03:26:00.000+08:00

a long tiring day been in sch since 9am for my CDS accounting lor...aiyo if no need take attendents i tell u i will not go de lor...coz like the basic learn le ma hahaha but ya all return le *doink haha very tired lor den was like late for lec as i woke up like 8 plus like wth haha my damn phone was on slient haha lucky i woke up on my own if not mich sure nag at me de...lolx den ya rush cab to sch but ya still late for like 15 min or so i guess well who cares as long as i go can le ar hahah bleahz but den ar i listen to the lec till slp lor...make no diff yea...after 1 1/2 haha end of lecture argh finally haha coz like so cold and ya wore my number 3 adidas top which was a wrong choice lor...lolx coz damn cold la...haha when to opp to have branch haha mich ate roti prata and i ate mee goreng while waiting for pi to reach haha den when i was like eating half way mich was like eh ur noodle look like worms(earthworm, bloodworm etc) den i was like munching my food and haha guess wat came into my mind haha i was like thinking of FEAR FACTOR lolx i mean its like so gross lor eating and pple telling u to imagine wat it is gosh~ after the mouthful den turn off le so din eat le lor...after that i drank 2 packet of milk and ate a bar of chocolate den went back to sch for lesson lor...during DCNK lab i was like "where is my file" den mich say aiya u ar left it where again den i panic lor and tell teacher i wanna go find my file den hmmp! he selective hearing lor dun wan to answer me he simply just IGNORE me gosh~ this kind of teacher oso have tsk tsk! haha den after that he wanna show the class a clip but den lolx he dunno how to change it to full screen den i tell him that if i can make full screen for him he must let me go haha den ya when out to find and stuff but came back empty handed den after a while i look at mich bag and saw my FILE den she keep laughing at me lor...haiz...hahah so peiseh lor...hahah i think ar once i have not enough rest or wat i tend to be very very forgetful haha so yea mich and pi will always ask me to keep it in my bag de but ya heavy la so bo bian lor...coz not enuff slp = a blur blur ally lolx....oh ya in DCNK lab we are suppose to fixed some kind of wire but den majority of my classmate's wire is able to detect but mine is always in a mess coz the machine cannot detact it tried twice but both oso the same den give up le lor...if not later go out of the class become duo ji yan haha lolx afetr lab slack in sch till cmaths lec starts...den i ate CHOCOLATE again lolx yummy chocolates hee den at abt 550 when in but no one so we the THREESOME sat at the back listening to mp3 and slping wahahahaha...den finally lesson begins den ya me tired so was like 1/4 awake only lor...den my hand writing oso very funny de haha all rubbish lolx...haha den canoot tahan lor very shag ar and plus i dun even understand wat is going on dotx...gotta do some understanding on my own if not worst come to worst i gotta ask pple to teach me le lor...haha after the lecture went to sch opp the kopitiam to have our TIAN JI porridge for DINNER hee yummy...gossip as we ate our dinner haha den went to TM coz i wanna buy pen but ar...wah just took a 23 but it was pack den when the bus jerk pi fell back on a AUNTIE argh den instead of saying u ok a not or careful, that LADY just push her den i was like WTH den nvm when she go down the bus keep pushing me wah den i damn angry le i simply just scold her "eh not say she purposly wanna fall de lor , u cannot be so bad de lor, *#$@!#$%!!!!" but all is said in chinese haha so damn pissed coz my friend was like kena bully sia...den everyone was like staring at us but do u think i give a damn...like DUH NO!! haha den reach TM buy liao den walk a while den left TM at 9 reach home abt 10 plus 1030 lor...sian half...

a SmiLe HidEs alL exPreSsioN be it sad or happy

2004-12-17T02:40:00.000+08:00

as usual not slpin early haha....lately been having some kind of thot but haiz it has been bothering me since last week with many WHYs? in my mind haiz...kinda xin ku too haiz...tell pi and mich abt it but they seems to turn a deaf ear on me at time but haha overall they will always fu yan me by saying i think too much...dotx! thus all that i wanna say to them sometime just puts me off and i would rather keep it to myself at time sigh been rather shag too maybe its due to waking up early and sleeping late...had an enjoyable day at sch today with the buying and selling of sportswear...haha dotx my group was like grabbing customer to promote our product but thanx to junwei, eddy and weixiang's group for all the interruptions wor whahhaha just kidding yea...hee =) oh ya that john ar...wah very *cat* lehz aiyo one pair of slipper already cost 20 dollars le but he still can bargain to sell 6 pairs at 60 bucks gosh...and ya after all the game stuff its the end of sch le yippee... haha pi mich and i went to TM coz hungry ma so went there to makan but ended up in mos eating moa chicken, corn soup, large fries, and medium ICE MILK TEA yummy hahah and thats my dinner today.haiz...churning thots dunno wat i'm thinking doing or wat-so-ever aiya...watever is it just let it be le la i dun wanna guess so much le too much thinking and guessing has make me even tired and sian of it le lor wanna get over it and be done with it asap coz its like a torture to me...coz its like all u can do is guess the answer but nv get to know the truth...oh well i dun think that is rather important to me at the moment coz now is my SLEEPING time le...nitey peeps take care miss ya =)

2004-12-16T10:55:00.000+08:00

haiyo dying of extreme boredom coz pei-ing princess pi for her iiso lab lesson boring sia...haha i found another cute moo moo cow picture wor....its so damn cute i must learn how da draw it sia....oh ya finally my cmaths book return to me le whahahah...*cough cough* haha..haiz...

2004-12-14T14:19:00.000+08:00

haha its been a long time since i last blog in my entry wor...haha well sch had started le wor but like very shag lor den like not enough slp lor...haiz...i wanna ZzZzZz wor...haha everyday wake up 6 sometimes even at 5 plus haha take for example yesterday i woke up 5 plus just to pei the pi princess to go for lesson at 8 haha den was like argh tired lor....haha den ate tian ji porridge for dinner at opp sch lor...haha yummy wor...lolx haiyo untill now haven see my lui xing yu yet lor sobz tonight is the last night to see it this year wor...haiz...SOL bored coz waiting for my CDS lesson to start lor...boredom lor....lolx....wahahhahahaha...sian half lehz...yawn so tired just now nearly slept at cmaths tut lor haha...toopid mich keep asking teacher to call me out xia la....hahah k la gotta pei mich to charge her phone at opp sch le la...she keep on KB me... lolx haha see if i have time again den i blog again la....miss ya peeps...=)

2004-11-23T01:13:00.001+08:00

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all, that's what it's there for right? You are
content with the options already
laid out for you definitely of the "If it
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mind. You tend to be a follower rather than a
leader, but that's fine because
all good leaders must first be good followers. You
tend to follow the crowds
living life the tried and true way, often letting
others make the decisions.
Just don't forget you have a mind too. Never be
afraid to voice your ideas or
opinions, no matter how ridiculous others may think
they are. This beaten path
is your comfort zone, you want and deserve company
on your travels trough life
as you are probably a very friendly and kind
individual, always putting the
needs of others before your own. That's an
excellent and all too rare quality.
Never lose it. But being surrounded isn't always
the best. People tend to try
and take charge and advantage of the fact and if
you aren't careful, it'll
be your life that's been taken over. Venture away
from your well-traveled road
and find your own away. Head down that road
less-traveled and see what's there
because though the path you're on may have been
done before, that doesn't
necessarily make it the right one for you. Step out
of your comfort zone and
take some risks you wouldn't normally take, make
mistakes, and make some time
for just you. Indulge and be a little selfish.
You'll come out all the better
for it.

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2004-11-16T01:46:00.000+08:00

aiya...too much thot too much question too much uncertains too much for me to handle le i might just break down any moment sigh~ how i wish i can find all the answer to my question all anD WHYs!!! hmmmm...y so good when u dun mean anything? why why?? argh TO ASK OR NOT TO ASK / TO KNOW OR NOT TO KNOW? sigh.... feel terrible inside how can i remove this kinda feelings deep within me...*shrugs time is precious u nv know wat will happen next and ya...every moment spend is a moment worth treasuring...~ i miss u~

got this from an email very interesting so ya~



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                 \_ )    and stay awhile... 

 

 

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     footprints on our         (    ) 

        hearts...               )   / 

                                ( _/ 

 

 

        oooO 

       (    )      and we are 

        \  (          never 

        \_ )      quite the same 

                                   because we have 

                                  made a good 

                                   friend!! 

 

 

    Yesterday is history. 

    Tomorrow a mystery. 

    Today is a gift. 

    That's why it's called the present! 

 

 

I think this is special...live and savor every moment... This is 

not a dress rehearsal!

2004-11-14T16:26:00.000+08:00

gosh i feel so bad i forget to wish sok a happy 18 birthday argh wat the...damn me how can i forget argh so sorry sok anyway i shall wish ya a happy belated 18 birthday wor~ i hope u had a wonderful day yea...

hmmm damn bored at home was actually able to slp longer till like 3 plus but ya my mummy la wake me up so damn early...well actually not really early la but toward me its early haha and guess the time ahha nah its 12 plus that she woke me up sigh ~ gosh ally is dying of a damn serious illness B.O.R.E.D.O.M sigh~ can anyone just entertain me a lil` hmmmm guess its a sunday and everyone might be busy with their family unlike mine sigh all only know how to play mah jong aiyo chow si ren le...argh so fan coz i got nothing to do argh~ hmmm maybe later mich will meet me at my house here the coffee bean haha yea at last some entertainment yeah!! 3 cheers haha if not aiyo dunno wat to do sia haha

oh ya did i mention that i finally know how to go parkway le haha coz yesterday went to meet mich at tamp and guess who i brought along haha my lil`cousin john john haha he so cute can aiyo but lucky he is ting hua haha yup after meeting mich went to meet precelia and her sis at parkway lor haha...den suddenly jw msg me and ask if mich and i got la kopi not haha den say wanna meet us at there lolx den i was wondering....i thot he dun like to see his friend when he is out de ahaha den i guess he was alone and yup i was right lolx....hee but ya in the end din meet la coz he went home le haha JTB haha he cannot play with john wor haha yeah finally i got something to do le hee i'm gg for a bicycle ride with my cousin le hee bye guys....

moo moo cow rox =) H E E!

2004-11-12T03:50:00.000+08:00

haiyo haiz....sigh...SOL haha nah just kidding hmmmm looks like i have not been updating my blog for a long long time yea...everyone is asking me to update hahah hey guys dun say i nv update le ar coz i'm blogging this entry now! hee lately there have been lots of thots in my mind~ sigh....haiz well to sum up the past few days from:

Monday:hmmm went to ktv with zhi, rong, sok kim, sok yin, anna and ah cheow haha although we are suppose to meet at 11 but ya ally is a pig so slp till 12 plus den zhi give me a wake up call lolx...hear my aweful voice....lolx den actually very lazy to go de coz i slept at 5 plus...as usual due to conference lor haha my daily routine ma....cannot live without it....haha lolx ya ya back to abt ktv haha yea reach kbox at 115 haha i still rem the room number is 58 haha...sang songs from that time till 6 plus i guess haha sang so many many nice nice song hahah lolx came home look for the songs and ask zhi they all if they have the song haha so ya lots of nice song added to my list thanx for them sending to me wor..~ after all the ktv thingy went to chomps to have dinner and to celebrate ruping sokkim and esther's birthday wor haha ate lots of food woah~ how much fats is that gosh~ *wonder wonder*... but overall its only once a while that i eat so much since the holidays started lolx so haha try not to worry so much on fats ba lolx... hee the duo hua desert is yummy hee miss it yea...hee after all the celebration went to meet mich at my house area den head down to O2 at bishan haha love that place simply so peaceful and great atmosphere...oh ya rong oso did mention to me abt the meteor shower on the 17-19 of nov and 12-14 dec hmmm maybe i will be able to see the one during this month coz next month sch reopen le sigh...coz rong says that the best time to view it is during dec sigh will i be able to see it...hmmmm wonder wonder who can pei me to see?? anyone?? hmmmm....

tuesay: slp slp slp sigh and more slp hee woke up by my best pal haha came my house ding dong haha so wake up lor den after that left le... went online chat a while den aiya feel like bio-ing clouds so went to the muti-storey carpark and slack while bio-ing hmmmm at that moment yea many thots went thru my mind haha yea but ya guess its all just some nonsensical rubbish haha...found straws so fold straws star hee although hand will pain pain de but ya still hold de...it seems that the 1st star i fold will always be the best looking star...haha

wednesday: hmmm was suppose to play badminton with anna thay all but yea sick la so ya i have to turn them down sooooo sorry guys another den we meet up again kk =) oh ya i was suppose to visit the doc de but ya woke up damn late like 330pm and guess wat my clinic close early on every wednesday de so ya did see the doc again ba..haha so ya another boring day at home slacking hahah...and i told myself tml den see doc nvm de and guess wat thursday was a holiday so ya din open lor...sian half...

thursday: hmmmm wat did i do on this day wonder wonder as usual slp till 3 plus den mich call me and ask if wanna meet so ya i woke up bath den go out le...wore all white haha coz its my fav colour haha guess i'm too obsess with it haha lolx...den that mich aiyo say i'm qualified to join PAP le *penGz sia... haha reach tamp at 6 den slack at coffee bean haha mich wanna fag so we seat outside lor haha i see the chair like a bit dirty i dun wanna sit le mich see le bua ta han me sia and haiz ban me from wearing white when gg out with them coz she say that i'm tooo paranoid over it le haha true ma if u wear white i'm sure u will be afraid to dirty it de ma... its just human nature right? haha after all the slacking at coffee bean we head to S11 to slack...actually was suppose to eat de but end up watching s'pore idol and ren wo hao you haha but ya like watching black and white movie coz there isn't any sound gosh make me see untill damn pissed off...den ya afetr the show mich say go walk walk coz she is falling asleep le so went pack to TM but ya see all the shops close le haha den slack at mac den suddenly haha hungry but ya dunno is it hungry not coz before that drank coffee on an empty stomach so jiao wei... den like pain and hungry de feeling ma...so ya went back to S11 which was like 11pm le lor haha...ate fish meat bee hoon but din finish it...haha den ya afetr that like very late le so mich say eh u dun wan to go home ar later no bus den u know sia haha so ya went tp take bus home and ya reach home at 12 haha hmmmm sound familiar ma haha like cinderalla....lolx haha dun care me la i'm crapping...as usual haha conference hee...

friday: yea friday haha go kia kia with mich precelia and junwei haha suppose to meet at 1230 and guess wat all late sigh make me wait for them wah they hor so big card ar lolx nah just kidding de haha after a while later jw reach haha slack at small mac then the both of us damn quiet and i mean very quiet lor aiyo cannot make it sia...den if talk only a few words de dotx...-_- sigh~ haha den mich was next haha precelia was last hee stay at small mac while deciding on where and wat to eat den end up gg to TM's footcourt to have our lunch but see the crowd and decided to change to mos den finally settle at yoshi to have our lunch haha i was already famished...order a beef bowl haha but din finish it and mich keep on forcing me to eat if not she will say....hmmm its between the both of us de haha...the damn rain dampen our sprits sigh den walk around tamp after that head to pasir ris via bus... boring bus ride make me wanna slp haha coz ya as long as it is a bus ride i will slp de lolx den if i slp precelia will be alone so ya juat stay awake lor... that jw say alight at the stop which is opposite downtown and thot there is a bus there but haha he was wrong hee end up having to walk all the way to the inter but guess wat while walking halfway, there was a suddenly pour of rainfall wor walk in the rain with my argh white slippers gosh~ me and my paranoid stuff start again haha until mich cannot ta han me wor... hmmm the moment we step in white sands haha brrrrr~ cold haha went to toilet to wash my slippers...den slack around till the rain stops lor...den wanted to buy mineral water den mich and precelia left me and jw together....dotx hee aiya just not my luck hmmm dun have the water that i'm used to drink de den jw was like penGz water oso need brand den can drink de ar lolx... after that went to look for the both of them at coffee bean and ahha slack again till mich smoke finish...after that head to swens to have ice cream yUmMy...i love ice cream...hee den taught precelia how to fold stars and stuff haha after that walk back to downtown east coz i wanna play the soft toy game haha manage to win 3 but haha but another one drop together when there was an error with the machine so haha just nice mich precelia and myself have one each le so gave the fourth one to jw hmmm actually i think the chicken is cute but ya maybe next time den i go play that and win that chicken hee den while walking he turn and ask me to help him keep later he take back from me...haha den played photo hunt...wow play till my eyes crossed le haha dou ji yan whahahahha~ i see till blur blur even till we found 5 mistake i was like huh? so fast 5 le ar whahaha sotong la cannot blame haha after all the fun we had its the memory together that is much more important haha after all the soft toy thingy we went back pasir ris mrt station to take a train back den precelia was gg to visit her grandmother at hosipital den mich suggest that we all pei her go lor so ya... long journey to SGH and that mich and precelia on their mp3 dun wanna talk to me sobz...only left me and jw hee...den i was playing with his giraffee lor its just so cute haha hey jw i told u before that ur instinct is wrong abt me hitting u wor haha hmmm....i did hit u ar...and u sha sha like me beat why so silly dunno how to move away de ar...hahah....oh ya oso found out that he oso scare of tickle de wor haha on the train tickle me la haha end up give me tickle u hee =) haha i seldom see guys scare of tickle de wor haha but ya overall i kena tickle the most la precelia la keep tickling me aiyo den jw oso another one keep tickling me de....why like to tickle pple lehz?? hmmmm....*wonder wonder* haha lolx reach SGH den saw bats in the trees wor many many of them wor~ after visiting her grandma mich suggest to head down to newton for dinner wor~ order stingray kang kong -my fav yum yum =)- and haha gong gong den was happily eating den i realise that jw was just eating stingray and suddenly it hit my mind that he dun eat veg de so when he went to the toilet i told mich and mich say nvm lor let him eat the stingray we eat the rest lor but actually wanted to order something else but ya dunno wat he like too so ya din get any other food lor den he return so we ask him wat else he wants den he say dunno -_-" den we just stick with it lor haha precelia see me eat the gong gong till give me that kind of gross up face haha so ya din pull the whole thing out just pull a bit den eat it...lolx yum yum hee den after all the food stuff its time to head home yea...home sweet home walk back to newton MRT station with mich precelia and jw den precelia rushing home so mich pei precelia go home by cabby den left me and jw at the mrt station lor den ya manage to phyco him to pei me take northeast line haha...den reach home very excited to see her result but ya...my excitement has come to naught when i saw that her result is haiz.... damn sad damn worry for her lor den haiz was like dumb founded den dunno how to tell her lor sigh~

hmmmm wow looks like this is the longest entry ever lolx wooo.... happy reading wor lolx hee my compo oso nv so long before de... hee k la nitey guys muacks~

2004-11-03T15:11:00.002+08:00

hey hey wassup dude...~wahahahahah bleahz well my exam SUCK big time yea dunno wat the hell or watever rubbish i'm writing gosh and guess wat is the topic that i wrote for my compo? people nowadays are very concern abt the way they look? Do u Agree? hmmmm i guess it just came in handy ba suppose to be an arguementative essay ba ya i change it into a story....like wat the hell right hahah den the part 2 is the maginzine writing on if u have the choice to be someone for a day who u wanna be and why? sigh and another page of rubbish gosh i guess the examiner will die after reading haha coz i wrote rubbish argh~~ oh ya and paper 2 was like worst i pratically was sleeping lor dunno y can't seem to keep myself awake ba HAIYA....stress sia damn fan argh dunno wat i was doing lor but ya....oh man guess wat gosh~~ precelia hear me slp talk last night den haiyo ji peiseh yi xia was damn tired yesterday lor den i was not aware on wat i was talking to her all i knew that aiya all rubbish haha...aiyo dunno why nowadays eat a bit bao le den eat somemore will be damn xin ku de wanna puke de feeling...sigh ex msg me abt my exam den yup chat awhile too....sigh....hmmmm dunno wat i wanna do with my life sigh boring life hmmmm feel so much wanna drink sia hahah oh ya my ex aka my da jie jio me to go clubbing with her one on one wor haha...haha...can...lolx hmmmm long time nia go le must go more often....hahah dotx -_- damn blogger

H I D D E N A G E N D A

2004-10-29T22:11:00.000+08:00

wow great day today hahaha went out with my ex-classmates zhi rong anna & amy haha feel so relax after gg out with them had lots of joke lots of gossip whahahah funny funny hee.... reach ps at 2 but was suppose to meet at 130 haha i was late but RoNg was even later haha reach abt 3 haha slack at startbucks as it was raining damn heavy lor...den yea damn cold too haha but too bad din bring jacket haha yea took neoprints hee... =) might upload it maybe after my chalet ba lazy to carry the lappy to the com room haha coz i'm slacking in my bedroom haha oh ya just now went to grapevine to have my dinner wow i love that place the atmosphere is damn cosy and its so relaxing oh ya did i mention that they play nice jazz music best place to slack man haha yup kinda ex but yea overall its nice ar...haha left the place at abt 9 plus coz rong saw me damn tired haha yea mentally shag la haha no energy haha lolx hmmmm....tml gg to chalet le sigh NO NET argh~~~ sure bored de haha nah having family bbq tml haha den sunday its friends de haha yea so look forward coz i have a fav gift from my godma hahah yeah~~ S.M.I.L.E aye haven bath yet wor haha guess i shall go and pom pom wor hee...feeling damn happy today hahah yea!!

2004-10-29T11:37:00.000+08:00

~~CheCk oUt mY hOrO fOr ToDaY~~

Scorpio
Oct 24 - Nov 22

Somebody is asking -- make that begging -- for your attention in a subtle or perhaps not-so-subtle way. Why do you keep turning the other way? Ask yourself what you`re really afraid of. This person is not out to stick a hook in your soul, nor are they out to trap you in a prison cell. They only want to spend a few quality minutes in your presence. They enjoy you more than you realize. You two have a lot to learn from each other.

2004-10-28T14:42:00.000+08:00

ALLY IS BORED

2004-10-27T02:36:00.000+08:00

~*~*QuoTeS fRoM TuRn LeFt TuRn RiGhT*~*~

alone in a familiar city..

each longing for that one magical moment..

will they ever meet again?

life is full of surprises; might two parallel lines one day meet?

living in wistful solitude, they both believe the day will come when they'll find true love..

they long for that one magical moment...

they pass by each other countless time. one day, they finally meet..
but life is full of surprises. a chance encounter leads to another separation.
fate.. how much longer will they have to wait before finding each other again?

rem all this haha great quotes i love "life is full of surprises; might two parallel lines one day meet?" this the best haha hmmmm believe in true love?? dunno ba haha wait till it happen upon me den say la haha lolx hmmm went out to celebrate mich b'dae haha gave me a nike shorts as a gift for her b'dae haha and YES i got my very 1st b'dae gift from mich precelia and xf ahha really happy coz i always wanted it when i had set eyes on it haha i knew that day when we were at taka the staduim there i already felt something fishy le but nvm precelia keep dragging me around haha after that had to choose mich gift and pay ma den while que-ing, they disappear again gosh~ so dunno wat they are up to so shen mi wor hmmmm wonder wonder hmmm just now chat with mich on the phone and told her how i felt towards something lor and yup the comments that she gave me was rather true la sigh~ dunno y feeling this way tooo haha anyway been lack of slp not coz busy studying my Os lor but in fact is due to chatting hahah and the main and major reason is that i can't seems to be able to enter my dreamland...~ LOLX hmmmm today at sunset bay play wah the weather today was damn good as its cool and the main thing is that the sun is not out hahah....lucky *phew* if not sure chao ta again sigh hmmm i'm begining to feel slpy le maybe coz i have a long and tired day and partly i only have less den 3 hours of slp den rush cab meet precelia haha which cost me 9 bucks argh~ haiz i cannot tahan le la i need to ZZZzzZZZzzZZZzz le my eyes are heavy .... soon i can go zoo be panda le hahah lolx k la gg to zzz le...nitey muackz =)

2004-10-22T20:15:00.000+08:00

*phew* a day has pass and yea i know i have not been undating for a long time hmmmm recently have a new home rule by my mum....sigh every night after ten sure cannot see me online me coz she will just turn off the damn modem sigh~ hate it lor i how old le still control me sigh hmmmm yea today was the release of the exam result hmmmmm well my result ar not very good la but well at least i pass all haha with hmmm Cs and Ds haha well i'm happy with wat i get la haha
sian a week more will be older le sigh~ haha need entertainment badly soooooo damn bored help!!!! sigh damn holidays haiz