Saturday, January 29, 2005
A sMiLe HiDeS A|L exPreSsIon Be iT hAppY or SaD...
sorrows are the only one that is unable to be hidden esp when the tears start rolling down....sometimes its beyond one's control...
if u want me to be happy its definatly possible...just that the hurt within will gradually build up de...thats wat i always do...i may seem happy but deep down within me u will nv be able to see my inner world...
wat can u do or wat should u do when u have fallen with a person which assume that he is a bad guy (!-_-") and encourage u to forget and give up on the idea... ming ming jiu shi you gan qing wei he yao bi kai ne? bu zhi bu jui yi si ge yue le...yi tian bi yi tian de sheng wei he wo hui ze yang wo ye bu zhi dao....wei he xin huang ni wo ye bu chi dao xi huang jui shi xin huang mei you te bie de li you...sometimes i just dun get it why? haiz...when there is a will there is always a way...
well went to Wild Wild Wet today for our project stuff haha play the whole day till haiz me sick i think totally change of voice...sigh...oh ya me chao ta too haiz dunno when den can white back again haha...well many things happen for a reason as things dun just happen coz it wans to happen yea...been a rather short holiday but yea have nice, sweet, beautiful, sad memories and ya all the objection from 2 buddies haiz dun get it dun understand and haiz dun wanna know wats wrong with myself too...haiz tml i still gotta attend church and gotta go kia kia with my aunts and mama to get cny clothes haiz gg to zzz le tml den i continue please stay tune hahah kk nitey pals muAcKz....=p
Sunday, January 23, 2005
yeah finally the terms test are gone...hahah yippie...but ya i should not be happy so soon i still have my ACCOUNTS paper wor...sigh...hmmmm lots of stuff happen and yea mich told me some stuff and ya told me that i should not be so sensitive and should learn how to hack care and ya being sensitive has its good and bad point...maybe due to my sensitivity thats why i tends to think alots sigh... some things i just can't seem to say let go = let go de...i will just tell u ya i forget abt it le i nv think abt it le haha all this are just said to fu yan u all de if not haiz keep on nag aiyo ally just simply hates nagging...lolx hmmmm this whole week i can say that i'm not really being myself coz i've been rather emotional maybe i really think tooo much le ba...aiya dunno why i say that too but yea...its funny how stuff can be...when u begin to have determination on something and decided to move on there will always be some stuff holding u back and ya preventing u from gg on...that does not apply to me yea coz i'm like always on the same spot nv moving...haha WHY i simply dunno...maybe...its due to me unable to open up to pple abt feelings or something like that...partly i prefer keeping to myself and ya act happy when i not haha dunno la that wat i feel i am ba...maybe its coz i'm unable to tell how hurt am i ba that y i turn to mine alcohol...drown all sorrows and unhappiness...hmmm thurs pi ask me why i keep looking into the sky and ya guess wat me ans back..."haiz u really dun understand me well still say we are buddies" dunno why say such hurtful words too haha den ya mich told her its coz when i fan or thinking something that is the only place i find comfort in...haha hmmmm next time when ally is down the only place to look for me will be a place where the sky is visible else it will be my house multi-storey car park....haha well no one will oso find me de la...haha aiya me dunno wats wrong le talking rubbish and crapping..........mad......
haix...
paranoid ally hmmmm....
nitey...
Saturday, January 15, 2005
been feeling quite rubbishy lately...this whole week sucks...
stressed out from the "not so near yet not so far" exams and projects haiz. thanks to my frens ahahah who kept reminding me that exams is just round the corner, like i don't know that already...but yea she is damn lucky in a way coz she dun have to take the term test...haix
looking at the heap of notes piling up on my table really didn't help one bit...
and this whole week i've got stomach ache...like on and off...just refused to go away...darn...
oh ya been rather AP recently how no reason and ya hot tempered gosh wat is wrong with me argh~ guess there is only one main factor that is affecting me this much ba...been fagging and i know its not right but ya i'm too vexed and i simply can find another way to dis-stress sigh. my frens are begining to dislike this particular person and ya coz its due to ME and it seriously affect the 3 of us badly and ya i manage to conclude that this person has a damn serious conflict with my group due to his every body language and ya i proud to say that me too is begining to DISLIKE or shall i say HATE coz we feel that he is a very XNR lor...wth well maybe my this blog will continue to rot till all the exam are over and done with it yea....hmmmm very very extreme tiredness due to an hour slp on the previous night...
nitey peeps take care ya
*muackies*
Saturday, January 01, 2005
HAPPY NEW NEW TO ALL AND EVERYONE wor~
hmmmm my new year resolution....wat is it huh... haiz dunno lehz i seem to be so suay so ya dun think that anything i wan or dare to wish for anything le sigh...just hope to pass my studies can le...and dun wanna think too much haha gonna change myself to learn how to hack haha yea...hmmm use heavy work load to bury myself hmmm....haiz....
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